Saturday, November 29, 2008

One In A Million

Well, today is the day, i supposed go with my fellows, but i didn't, cuz i don't think i can take one more day leave for this week. Nat, don't angry with me.

Personally, I also not interested in it, not really have the courage PUSH me go. I don't even prepare any songs during the pass few days. And, you know what happen now? I'm coughing and sore throat, shit!!! I hate this cuz will effect my voice, although i'm not gonna take part but still not nice to listen >_<

Early morning at office first thing i do is, order a lemon water from next door, yes, is lemon + water. Hopefully can get well soon...

Thursday, November 27, 2008

081126 Yunho Yoochun Sing Funny

Again I see this 2U acting very funny..^^

YUNHO = YUCHUN - 2U CF #2

Again, i see Yun Ho keeps on singing and the other only playing fool, hahaha... funny...

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

At KL

Finally at KL. And i'm working today. Rebecca asked why, cuz I'm working under my aunty's office. That's find, today she didnt talked much cuz rushing the audit thing, even my cousin brother here, Kok How.

First thought came to me when i passed KL toll, "I AM BACK TO THE JAIL AGAIN".

Back to Normal

Early at 8am, I woke up, and now updating my blog. 2 hours later i will back to KL, back to my normal life. Since my grandpa's situation turned better, i think i really have to leave, cuz 'SOMEBODIES' are waiting me back and wanted to scold me GAO GAO. I dunno what i done wrong go back see my grandpa, but i knew, they will scold me.

Staying at Ipoh these 3 days 2 nights, i feel relax. At least I never got this feeling at KL before. Alex & Oscar told me the same thing, KL is too tension. So many ppl say Ipoh is the place which for RETIRE use. I agree too, but also can find a stable job although salary low, living happily ever after. Staying at KL just like everyday having a fight or war with those you don't know, or, maybe fighting with the invisible scare or pressure. For the pass 3 years I stay in KL, I ONLY learned how to live, or I should say how to survive.

But the best thing is, I learn Korean, I meet nice friend. Blessed. I dunno how long i can stand for this time, but i won't let ppl OVER my line. This is my BORDER LINE.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Ipoh, Love

From 23rd Nov 2008 6:30a.m., my mum knocked my room door,

"Grandpa cannot liao... quick, we have to go home." she said it in hurry. Then i asked the whole story and i decided not go back so early. Reason why? My KL house FLOOD!!! Certain pipe stucked with certain place and all the dirty water from above neighbours all came into my house. And, the HOUSE OWNER also didn't care at all. I cleaned all the dirt then back ipoh at 3pm.

On the way back, i slept one hour then woke up, cuz the air con too cold and outside raining heavily. All along the road, i saw the trees and mountains passing by, feeling was weird and i was thinking another rediculous story ^^

I reached Ipoh at 1830pm, but really heavy rain, the thunder scared me. Took a cab staright to GH, and i saw my mum and relatives, then i saw my grandpa. This is not the 1st time I see my grandparent full with injection whole or with those medical equipments i totally dunno what does it call; but still, i'm worried.

Few years back, my father side grandma, she stroke at home and sent by an ambulance which me & my aunt & my maid also inside. It's my 1st experience to feel SCARE. You'll never know the next second what will happen to your beloved, and the emergency room environment makes you can't breath easily. After that, I spent about 3 months on & off, come & go in hospital Fatimah. I still remember I love the canteen nasi lemak. After 3 months, we took her back home and hired a maid took care of her. She watched Astro with me, and even listened what i talked to her always at every midnight. I knew she loves me so much, she taught me a lot. She suffered for 9 months finally she left me.

One years ago, my father side grandpa, sickness for long time, suddenly faint at my aunt's house, immediately we sent him to HUKM. The night before, he still wanted to give me his own money, cuz he told me have to eat well, and he secretly said,"your aunts won't treat you good, take my money and live well, k?" At that moment i knew nothing, but scolding him not to do so, cuz i'm good enough. But who can predict the next second, he became like that? For about one week, he left me too, in front of me, i looked at him and the heart beat machine, slowly till it became one straight line. Angie was there too, and me. I'm proud to say this, "I'M WITH HIM TILL LAST SECOND", cuz i'm his own grand-daughter.

Now, till my mother side grandpa, he took good care of me when i was small. He brought me to school, every morning we went morning market had our breakfast, and one thing, the most important thing, HE EVERYDAY GIVE ME 50 CENTS. Maybe he wanted me have an atittute for saving money, but finally i disappointed him. Even now.

I always tell ppl surrounding me, "I AM COLD BLOODED WOMAN", but i love my grandpa & grandma, and of cuz, my mum. Nobody can replace them. But some of my relatives, be honest, I have no feeling on them. Whoever helped me before, i won't forget; but whoever hurt me before, I will take back whatever is belonged to me. Kinda like revenge? Not really, but I do REMEMBER everything had happened to me in my life time.

Fashion Show ?

Found this photo from baidu, really looks like both of them having a catwalk at certain fashion show. The DAI LAU Jun Soo's wearing is really nice looking; Chang Min really got model body line, speechless.

Basic House 08秋装目录

















When i saw HER n HIM together, wow, fantastic!!! Park & Eun... Lovely couple.... ^^

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Suki Low

Did you guys watch Suki's performance at One In A Million? I just watched, she's very young, and her slang slightly like a Malay gal. My colleague told me, she sang a lot of Malay songs, that's y the Malay also likes her. Beside that, her singing really good. Even the judges also like her so much.

My Name

Last night when out with Dawn, when we was chatting i suddenlu come out a name for myself,

Organic Sam = 有机森 = 有机心
Cuz lately we are trying to do some BIG WOK YE, meanwhile my idea is too FREAKY and OVER, plus everything also WELL PLANNED. This is how the name created. You may not understand, but when Dawn read this, i knew she'll laugh. ^^

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

DBSK We Love You - 1년 7개월동안 그들이 참아왔던 말

Alyn said this video will cheer me up, but after i watch it, i really cry badly. Sorry for my sensitive or emotional... BUt thanks Alyn.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

If I were a boy

Finally, I have my time to listen some English songs I had downloaded for a quiet of long time. Beyonce’s songs now playing in my window media player, not bad, especially the song named ‘IF I WERE A BOY’. It’s totally talks about girl’s feel, talks about how to be a better man to his girl friend.

I had this thought when I was young, yup, I said YOUNG, like below 26yrs old. Now I’m turned to 28, if my life only till 5+, I walked half, and it’s not kidding or pessimistic, but I really getting old day after day. When I walk on the road or shopping malls sometimes, looking at the young girls hanging with their gang or boyfriends, it’s really a strong alert ringing to me, “you’re not young ANYMORE”. If I were a boy, I got lots of things to do for myself.


If I were a boy, even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
To come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand, oh-oh-oohh-oh
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You got it wrong
But you're just a boy
And you don't understand (yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Monday, November 17, 2008

Yun Ho & Yu Chun's friends










Brothers




OMG, Jun Ho really YENG AH~~~~!!!!! Although he's not celebrity, but he's nice looking, taller than Jun Soo. Really man than Jun Soo...

081115 mkmf fancam dbsk best album of the year + ending

Guys' tear, what to say? Let's add oil ba, i believe TVXQ fans will know what to do next to support their beloved.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

081115 MKMF- DBSK wins Best Album of the Year (Changmin Crying T_T) [HQ]

I would never knew this happened on Chang Min, cuz this was the first time he cried in front of this BIG SHOW... After watched it, i cried too...

Saturday, November 15, 2008

SAND gathering...

3 of them waiting the food come, while fooling around too. Inside the video no me, but my voice there ^^

Well, before that, we went Time Square ate pizza at Vivo,but not really nice, just so so. Luckily didn't bring Gloria along, later she'll complain.

Three of them SUPER LOVE Big Bang's songs, kept on singing inside my car, even some said listen song inside my car more got feeling, I think maybe the sound system different gua... Environment nice, then we can sing more in feel!!! Especially the acoustic version of HARU HARU...

It's a nice dinner with 3 of them. Some more, our 막내 really funny, actually she's not only got Chang Min feel, but Jun Soo too. Haha... so cute....

Friday, November 14, 2008

Cover

More i listen to others' cover, more i realized the world is TOO DAMN BIG!!!! Everybody really sing so well, the stage of world is too big, who knows maybe the next TOP SUPERSTAR will be you, right?

RE: SAND Come Back Stage

Regarding the title above, I think it will more impress IF we put the poster at school. Just a funny thought comes into my mind. :p

소원 때문에...

Because of this song, I only slept 4 hours; because of this song, I non stop listen it, 1++ times; because of this song, I found my ears really function well; because of this song, I found myself really USEFUL.

SAND going to sing this, such a BIG 도전 to me. Yea, it is. But in my mind, i just know i have to sing as good as i can, compare with Jun Soo, I'm still far from him, but near too.

Nat told me ONE IN THE MILLION audition date, but i forgot liao, she & Dawn will do have a try, asked me too. But i don't have the intention to take part on it, feel like, "I'm old leh, still wanna dream for it?" I dunno much about singing, really. From standard 1 my teacher asked me took part of the singing competition, till high school. But for real, I didn't learn so much about the singing skill, especially BREATHING. I hope i have the chance to learn or have a class for singing, especially for SINGING only. No dancing pls, i hate dance.

This time, SAND Come Back Stage, where we gonna start leh? KBS? MBC? SBS? or... TV3? hahaha... Maybe just in front of Gloria, haha...

Thursday, November 13, 2008

New dog...

UPDATE~

Jia Yoong said the dog now named it Wuffy; but when i see Jia Wen now, she said no!!! I wonder how i call it......




This dog, just arrived at my office. My cousin sister arrived.... now we have to bring it to vet. Will update later.

Don't Say Goodbye

TVXQ released the version C album, inside got 4 new songs, DON'T SAY GOODBYE, 1st time chorus, if Jun Soo sings in front of me, I will cry...

Don't say goodbye
그 손을 놓지 말라는 마음이 들려요
그대 맘이 들려요 아직 나만을 원하죠
그댄 숨길 수 없죠 그댄 거짓말을 못하죠

I can feel Jun Soo's full heart singing the part, or maybe I'm so sentive now, for certain reason... When was the last time i asked the SOMEONE don't say goodbye to me? When was the last time I cried like a crazy begging SOMEONE don't leave me? I never forgot, but i never mention, cuz it's too hurt.

[M/V] Wrong Number -TVXQ

What a new pv from they, enjoy...
Dedicate to Maggie

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

답답해...

Last night Alyn told me, our school new batch student all like Big Bang, no more TVXQ. Although i like Big Bang too, but after listened it, still I feel sad, till now.

I understand the student all very young like Seung Ri's age, their music also lively, powerful and more towards to western style, their appearance really capture youngster's eyes. 10대 fans a lot... TVXQ already became others 선배, plus they changed a lot, mostly fans already move to 20대 이상... Can't deny, this is the RULES, entertainment field never ending comes out new ppl, new group, new tactic to tackle audiences.

But who cares? Just another new face, if they really NO TALENT, immediate will ignore he or she. Game rules No. 1.

Monday, November 10, 2008

My Thunder Back!!!

LASTLY, FINALLY... my thunder back to me... Love it so much!!! How do i live without you??? Haha... Alyn, no need download for me.

My lady boss went out to fetch her little daughter, Jia Wen. I listening PHS's song, cuz, again, FINALLY, i downloaded his 3, 4, 5, and remake albums. One of the advantage without Thunder is, while you're trying to use other download softwares or the basic download, it'll fatser than before. No matter how, I need Thunder :p Lots of drama waiting me...

Office obviously lesser phone ringing compare 2 months ago. I'm worried but what can i do? Nothing but follow up closely like my lady boss always says to us.

To my mum...

I never have this strong feeling before, at least for the past few months, I DIDN’T HAVE. When I listen to this song which sings by Hyo Shin, I realized a lot at this late midnight. More I watch more I feel SOMETHING hide inside my heart. I wonder, ‘will everybody love their mum like this song wrote?’ Maybe yes, maybe no. How many of us will know how to THANKS our mum? What can we do to thanks them? When we’re still living inside their body, also the same time they taking the risk for their life, it’s very dangerous. We even shit inside their body; I know it’s disgusting to say it out, but this is truth. Myself, I always argue with mum, yup, I am. But I knew my mum loves me always, of cuz me too. But we won’t say it, love sometimes not really has to tell out, but action will do. I see some kind of the family always say I LOVE YOU to each other family members, but I didn’t feel the LOVE from them. I hate this fake action. What they know about love? I don’t know either, but I knew I have the responsibility to take of my mum, no matter what had happened.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

A Whole New World - Park Hyo Shin and Ann

This video I wanna dedicate to one of my fren, Nat. She loves this song so much, everytime go sing K, this song sure will get choose by her. And I found Hyo Shin really sings merely the same as the original singer. Please watch whenever you read my blog k?

RM25 vs USD25

Maggie called me, told me a lot of things, one of its, was about hair cut. Both of us cut our hair yesterday, mine cost RM25; but Maggie was USD25, plus needed gave tips USD4. According to her, tips is a MUST in States, nobody will surprise there, and I can imagine, if I'm a shoeshine boy, it's really a great counts on TIPS. Of cuz, 1st of all, I must do well in it :p

She bought the book i told her last time, just started read one chapter, but I already finished. Tomorrow she'll go New York has a walk, asked me what i want for Xmas. I don't know, everything in States expensive. Once she said wanna buy Tiffany & Co., OMG! Don't!!! It's really expensive!! Our friendship not about MONEY, but quality... always remember...

미워하자

Sitting in CC I think almost 3 hours, but not thinking to leave so soon, cuz i got lots about Hyo Shin not yet download finish, watch finish, discover finish. without any sign, I just can't get myself, my mind, my eyes, my ears...etc, from him. Feeling, like I'm fell for a real guy in front of him, some one, fall for him in a very natural way like other girls did in their life time. Forgive me if you feel I'm so so so so damn HUA CHI = Flower Crazy....

Park Hyo Shin

No more TVXQ, cuz bored with their latest performances in ALL shows, started immuned, not that interested with them, but still, I'm their fans.

But, I came across someone's youtube, I saw him, fall for him deadly, especially his voice. From ballad, to bossanova, and his remake album, I'm so into him. Can't get my EARS off of him... I heard his song 2 yrs before, but didnt know who's he, till this second, this moment. Maybe you guys don't know him, but if you watch "Il Ji Mei" which starred by Lee Jun Gi, the song title named "Hua Shin", sing by him. I can't forget the 1st time i listened this song, it's touched my heart, cuz after you watch the drama plus this song, tears drop. Such a fate i knew him now, i think it's blessed. Thanks.

But I don't have his photo, just knew he's borned on 1981 Dec 1st. Haha, younger than me one yr only, but his deep voice impressed me. Ah!!! Like I listen Hwanny's voice, both have the familiar voice.

And, if you see his performance in YDH Love letter at 2007 June 8th, his hair style already cut one side short, one side long. So, just wanna inform those TVXQ fans, YC not the 1st person who got this fashionable hair style, but he is the 1st one ^^ Not to attack any TVXQ fans k? Just wanna make thing clear. Don't kill me k? :p
P.S.: He also can sing trot!!!! I love his trot voice!!!
P.S.S.: In SAND video comment, one of the reader said me and Nat's voice can sing trot or ballad, why me ?????

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Big Bang 2nd Album





















After see their 2nd album photos, really think to buy and lock inside my drawer!! Too gorgeous!

Never expect myself will love this song, cuz full of hope after listen it. It's warm. When i watched the pv, feel released. and, the lyric so straight forward, i love this.