肥田喜事

最近电视播着这电视剧，我是第一次这么认真追看这部戏，实在有够写实。我向同事借了dvd一口气把它看完了。

故事除了讲述肥人的辛酸，还有说明肥人也有权利穿漂亮的衣服，也可以装扮得很可爱。但同时，也教会了我两件事：做人做事都要有自信， 还有，爱一个人不是迁就听话就行了，而是真真切切为他设想。

可能自己已经是肥田了，所以才更身同感受，肥了之后的我，更能深切感受要买一件自己喜欢也合身的衣服，真的一点都不容易。好笑的是，我从来都没有想过要减肥，或许是没有耐心和懒惰吧。也没差，就像这戏一直强调，心灵相同，如果是你的，就是你的。

Singing

Lately I watched American Idol, ASTRO Singing Contest & SPRITE (CHINA) Singing Competition. It’s amazing. Especially American Idol, Adam & Kris. Last month in Malaysia, One in The Million, Tomok won, of cuz Esther not bad too.

Take part in any kind of music talent or singing competition, what’s the most important thing we needed bring along always? It’s confident. I admit I don’t have it. That’s why I never try on any singing competition, except the SM Audition, for twice J

I’m going 29, but I’m still wondering, what I want for future, I still have a dream on being a singer. It’s kinda ridiculous, and I knew it won’t happen till I step out. Every time I watch the singing competition in TV, be honest to say, some of the contestants really cannot be accepted. I don’t know how the judge let them pass the audition. Not that I’m a critic person, but sometimes really no idea WHY. Well, myself not a singer, but my ears still can differentiate what is good what is bad.

Among so many singers, so many genres, so many styles, so many generations, etc, do yo have any idea which and what or even whose voice the most be deeply impressed you? Some of the singers’ voice you’ll find they no need music as a background, cuz their voice already a music, they born to sing live, to me, they are Jacky Cheng, Whitney Houston, Kim Jun Soo, Utada Hikaru, etc. Some of the singers’ voices have a healing feel, but without musical instruments as the set off or background, I found it just a normal song they’re singing, it’s difficult to touch my heart. Most of the Asian singers also can include in this group. The other kind I found is more to rhythm or dancing or performance singers, they maybe not so talented in singing but once add on some dancing and lightning effect, it’s perfect to watch, and most of them got a lot of fans or followers, selling always number one, like Jay Chou, Jolin Tsai, Britney Spears, Ayumi Hamasaki, and those idol groups.

Of cuz there still got a lot different kind of groups I found, but 3 of the most in the music industrial will be enough to discuss here. The above singers that I grouped is only my personal opinion, no need take it serious in your heart. To support your idol is your right, no need feel hurt when others criticize them.

Fight for Pride

This is the first and ever in my life time I had a big fight in front of all my colleagues with my lady boss, I even cried while shouting at her. Nobody dare to come near or speak anything. Till this second, I still don’t think I was wrong.

I really fed up and feel grievance till I swear to my father Lucifer, I won’t treat her as my relative, she’s only my lady boss. What I concern, only MONEY. And, I hate the purchasing and account girls; don’t ask me talk to them ANYMORE. Say I’m selfish? Then I’ll show you all what is the real SELFISH mean.

Recently I got lots of site visit, site conduct, product demo, etc. Luckily, most of the customers also purchase my product or service. And, I think my GOOD luck came was since the day I cut my hair. Superstitious? Maybe, but why not? At least, I see the result.

One of my friend at Mongolia, he’s quite enjoy the living environment there, relax. Although he’s working but still, like didn’t work at all, cuz nobody push him or keep watch on him. He said he rather stays there than at Malaysia. I’m kinda jealous him, but in the other hand, I feel pity on him. Jealous, is because he take high pay, always travel around for projects; pity, is because there’s only few friends he can calls out during at Malaysia, that’s why he rather stay oversea alone all the time.

But I found myself also the same type like him, no friend surround, rather alone. That’s why I like to talk with him, cuz we’re similar. Danny, I’m waiting you back end of this month and a candle light dinner ^^

HELP!!!!

OMG!!!! My external HDD dead liao ah!!!!! All my KATTUN video inside!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't sleep whole night till i got dark circle surrounding my eyes T______T

Ahhhh...............................!!!!!

The sadness inside my heart can't use the words to describe...

Exhausting….

Not only because of the weather, but my working, and my life. This whole week I have full of appointments outside, bunch of quotations waiting me, the unstoppable customers’ phone call, and the never ending revise layouts also have to be updated day by day.

I really tired, headache started sticks with me, and for 2 weeks I take pill to cure it. Lately I back home on time, but bring along the paper works, sales calculation and layout back home working while watching TV. I don’t have time to spare out for entertainment, e.g.: music and drama. The only time I have for music, is while I’m driving. About the drama, movie or program that I had downloaded from internet, all keep inside my hard disc till it started full then I will start filter out those not important video.

Sigh… I wanna have a short break.

New Look

Saturday & Sunday I went out and changed my look totally, I cut my hair like a coconut look, and bought those clothes I never wear before to look more like a girl, even bought a pair of yellow heel shoes, yup, SHINING YELLOW.

Without notice, all came in a sudden and I just let it went naturally.

P.S. After bought the clothes and cut my hair, i can't get my broadband this month, poor me T___T

Hot Hot Hot!!!!

I don’t know what’s going wrong to the earth, or maybe God wanna punish human for polluted the earth. But, lately, I mean from February till now, it’s extremely hot Hot HOt HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m driving up to down whole day, I already can’t take this anymore, and body gave the signal, cuz I’m headache badly and fever badly this 2 weeks. I’m not gonna go out under this hot hot sun, and I will discuss with my boss to reduce the afternoon appointment, NO MATTER HOW!

ASTRO

Due to Mother’s Day, I decided bought ASTRO as a gift to my mum, of cuz for myself, too. For monthly, I have to spend RM100 for the SATRO bill, but I think I can afford it. Now, I’m thinking to sign up for internet broadband service. Lately checking & comparing all the broadband service providers’ pros and cons. Actually I look for P1, but my area is not inside their coverage area, how sad about it. But I not yet give up P1, I will go their centre and ask properly about their service, terms and condition and etc.

Today ASTRO installed, when I back from work, I straight switched it on, till now :p Now mum also back home, and see her face I knew she’s happy, haha….. I felt myself alive after watched it, I pressed all the channels to confirm what package I’ve purchased. And I found that I really lack back, got a lot of programs I don’t know at all. When I turned to channel [V] or MTV, I found a lot of new music. Sigh…… Well, the coming day I will spend more times on ASTRO with my mum, at least we have more times to sit back and talk about the drama.

Regarding the broadband, I will update later day. Wish me luck.

Thanks

Sam back from Bangkok last few days, she bought me TVXQ single, and this is the second time she bought CD single to me as a present. I remember last time she brought back with a poster too. Thanks, Samsam Chew.

Rebecca gave me a big offer and sell off TVXQ 2009 hanging calendar to me in good condition. I don’t have enough money for now, but she allow me take it back first, once got $ then back in to her. Again, thanks Rebecca.

For such a long time I didn’t buy any luxuries things for myself, but now I had 2. Haha.
I’ve already started working for 2 months, now my situation better than before. At least I got money to buy food I love, e.g.: Mc Donald’s, KFC, Pizza Hut & etc. Compared to rice or noodle, or some expensive food, I preferred fast food. I’m still like a small kids :p eating French fries or hush brown with my hot coffee, how nice.

Looking at the calendar while listening Bolero, sigh… what a nice day…

Trust & Scepticism

My friend said she had a control freak aunt 24 hours ready scold her for any single tiny reason, and I believed her, cuz I got one and she’s not only a control freak but a typical scepticism freak. She even put a SPY near me, sigh. She’s not only my aunt but my boss too, how disappointed. My friend staying at US always calls and complains about her aunt, and she said she’s getting crazy and have a thought to suicide, not only once but quite frequent. I understood her feeling, I had this experience but I’m not thinking to kill myself, but kill my aunt. Of course I did not; it’s not a right way to settle this problem. Suicide only will bring hurts to us and very pain; kill others, only will make ourselves become a sinner. That’s why I told my friend, don’t think about suicide but try to change our thought and way of living.

“It’s the hardest thing to change others’ thought, and it’s easiest to change ours’”, I came across this from a radio station DJ’s night talk show. It’s true, why we have to waste our precious time to change their thoughts when opposite party’s stupid head already locked or not moving at all. Maybe now my friend not understands what the real meaning I wanna tell her, but I believe, later she will. Like my situation, my boss keeps on saying I’m playful, wasting time, not concentrate on my job, cuz from her eyes view and her earlier prejudiced, no matter what I do, she must accuse me done wrong. At the past 3 years, I’m living in the hate and everyday think to kill her too, what a childish thought I had. But after I back from my 2 months holiday, I changed my mind. Whatever she suspected on me, I treat her like transparent. I know what I’m doing, and I no need explain too much cuz she won’t believe. Playing computer or didn’t submit report = playful? = not serious? = wasting time? Please, do you know what the generation now is? This is not the whole you see, and I’m adult, I know what I’m doing now. To blame or complain or accuse or assume I am bad enough, I don’t think she got the right to judge other people. Who the hell she thinks she is? Forget about it. Against her or shout at her already no use, I rather use a cunning smile or laugh face her. Enjoy my happy life while working and I have to balance my life in between work and play ^^

Whenever my friend asks me “How?”, I will say the same to her, “If can’t stand it, then come back. No matter how many commitment you have, must make the decision by follow our heart.” It seems BULL SHIT, but this is true, don’t suffer ourselves, unless you enjoy the abuse from other.