Love Myself

See my header? Yeah, just now don't know SOT which nerve, kept on taking photo myself, like i'm so photogenic, of cuz the truth is NOT. Well, a woman near to 30, maybe will have this habit, trying to act young and show others 'I AM YOUNG', hahah...

These 2 weeks i'm so easy headache, take the Panadol Active Fast like taking meal that frequent. I knew it's not good for help but can't help. And i found the reason why i headache:

FAT = HIGH BLOOD PRESURE

Not kidding you all, now even myself also feel I'M FAT~!!! Arh~!!! Gotta stop eating so much and have to follow my lady boss go jogging!!!

Surprisingly Reunion~!!

Never thought will have the chance to meet back those primary & secondary school mates, haha... And i found they changed a lot, either me (according their words about me).

Suddenly a lot of memories flashing back and played like a drama series, it's amazing but scary. Most of them married and got children, only a few of us still remain single. I thought only me the winner as the Diamond Wong 5 (钻石王老五), haha... Friends separated all over the world i think, they travel around, they met their soulmates, and finally started their own family. Some of them even 180 degrees changed compare the old time. When i looked at the photos, i can't stopped but laughing out loud till my colleagues asked "Now what?" Haha, told her what had happened and she told me the same,

"You'll never know 10 yrs later, all your old friends sure will become more rediculous." Then she walked away.

I think so.

So now, what i wanted to do, is make sure myself look young whenever they see me, cuz most of them said,

"Why you look like 18 22? The picture is you?" or,
"What had happened to you? Eat what medicine?"

Haha... Thanks you all, i wish i can maintain my YOUNG at least 5 more years.

A New Begin

Because of the court case in between TVXQ & SM, I believe we all feel tired too. Lately their schedule a little bit not that GROUPY anymore.

2 days before Yu Chun and Jae Jung went Japan attended a small concert promoted their new song "Colors~ Melody & Harmony" and sang other songs, too. Among of its, they choose BEGIN, used to be performed by 5 people, but now only by 2 of them. At first when I came across the news about this, I was like, ‘My goodness, how they perform?’ . But after I listened it, my worried gone. And suddenly I have another thought, in future if these 2 ppl wanna form a group, I don’t think will be any problem to them. It’s not that I wanna separate 5 of them, but the situation for this case seems not that good enough or clear. The worst ending will be living from SM, but to continue as TVXQ by sharing with 2 different company, I think it’s not possible.

Be honest, to me, it still can acceptable. No matter what kind of way they come out in future, what kind of combination they form out, I’m still support 5 of them. Like my title said, this will be their New Begin.

Timeless

Today just downloaded my beloved singer, very talented singer, Khalil Fong's new album 'TIMELESS'!!! All the tracks are old song, i love his new version on all the songs, at least it's another taste and feel to me. Especially Faye Wong's 'RED BEAN', lovely...

오미빈하고 박유천 둘이 정말 닮아...

I don't know since when i started notice him, and i don't know since when i realized we're same. I'm talked about our thought and attitude, our taste and chioce. It's hard to make other believe, but we both don't know each other, both not living in the same country, both no even have a point which can link us together. Of cuz, he's an idol that everybody knew, crazy about to. If there's a wish i can make, I have one. Haha... I can't tell here, cuz it won't DREAM COMES TRUE loh...

Micky Yoochun- The Sensible Fool.
Confident,Strong (mentally la.) Kind and thoughtful. Generally socially unawkward. Keeps problems to self, only confiding in people whom you trust. Usually coming off as happy and cheerful, you can brighten the day for anyone. You're a can of corn, and nearly anyone has the tool to open you up. Yes, you're really as corny as the farmer's yearly harvest. You're lotsa fun anyday. You've probably driven people to embarrassment by making them guffaw out loud in public like that. Flirtatious. You're likely popular and you make good use of it. You may play the fool and all, but your family and other loved ones are whom you hold close to your heart and would never hurt them unless you had a reaaaaaaaaaaaaally good reason. Really. You can tell right from wrong. Most of the time, anyway. You often succumb to temptations, and somehow put play before work, even when the other half of your brain is kicking your conscience about it. Generally optimistic and lovable, friends just can't say 'no' to you, nor can they bear to hurt your feelings on purpose. You're the popular kid! People love you, and they can't stay away. You leave great impressions upon first meetings, but not necessarily keep the lasting image. Of course, it depends on what kind of person you meet with. You think about others a lot, but still harbours selfish intentions from time to time. You are possibly drifty, or seem that way, 'coz you love to daydream. Not a bad pastime, yeah. Aside from it being quite a waste of time. You probably look back and reflect on your enormous time wastage quite often. Control your thoughts a bit more and let yourself prioritise efficiently. Disallowing 'play' to triumph over 'work' will be a good start. It'll help to get your act together. You may have your own insecurities, but you have your own ways to deal with it. You're altogether a great friend and entertaining chatmate, and you pretty much love the life you live. :) P/s. Just guessing, you're probably a Gemini or Aries, or are of the blood type O.

Special Dedicate to Maggie... Evisu Model...

Maggie, I supposed put these all on facebook, but failed. So, I hope you'll like it lah~!!

I hate 6877

I don't wanna explain why, but i hate this number 6877.

Broken String

Today i fetched Kok How took ABRSM piano exam at Hotel Istana. When we arrived very early tried to regist that time, he told me didn't bring IC and the crew said, "NO IC, NO EXAM." Pissed off and no choice but drive back asap to get his wallet. This fellow really... sigh...

Well, of cuz everything on time and when he stepped inside the room, i sit aside waiting. Looking around the corridor, parents waiting with anxious facial expression, cuz their children taking exam inside a very cold room. (I experienced before, inside really cold @_@) And, all of them worried about their children will nervous till can't play well in front of the examiner.

When the time Kok How's playing piano, he's nervous too. And, suddenly i think back very long long ago story, back to... em... 20 yrs ago? Ah... SO DAMN LONG AGO leh... Yup, i took piano exam too, and i mere don't have any idea why i was there at that moment i was playing, haha... After few years when i was in secondary school, i started learn violin for 3 yrs, but i didn't take exam, cuz i scared. In my opinion, music instrument is for fun; if you force me to take exam, i rather quit. That' why, at the end i quited and the violin staying next to me till now, it still there. But it got one string broken so long, and i just ignored it.

Now, i think of learn back violin if possible, I mean: money, time & space. So, if yes, i will update here.

Online @ Home

Finally i got my broadband @ home, at least won't feel bore after watching ASTRO. Got more time on my works. Ya correct, i'm talking about working.

Sometimes i doesn't wanna work at office cuz lack of time staying / sitting on my chair doing paper works; so, i rather bring things back home continue. Some of my customers or suppliers complained me so bored cuz don't wanna go out with them during happy hour. Ya, i rather stay home watch ASTRO, i rather play my laptop, i rather eat at home, i rather read book at home, etc.

You know what? Lately i'm so into a korean drama call "He Can't Marry", story about a woman doctor & a well known architecture guy already reached 40 yrs old, BUT still single. It's very realistically, everytime i watch it, i also think the same,

"Will i end up my life like them?"

Of cuz i'm not a professional like them, but at least i got a job which still single like them. Sigh... Anyway, if you interested, have a watch on it, "결혼 못 하는 남자"

分裂

8月1日，当天我抱着兴奋的心情等待我的banner回来时，我却收到一个噩耗，“东方神起面临解散的危机”。等到我接过banner，回到家把自己的那张挂上的那一刻，我望着它好一段时间，突然我有那么一点想哭，可是我没有。没有一个很正确的字眼能形容我的心情，我想，用人类最为接近的字眼，应该是‘分裂’了。我的banner，是一个背对着我弹钢琴的朴有天。今年的演唱会我还没有看，可是照片就很多很多，特别是他的背影照。

很久以前，我也有说过我和东方神起的姻缘，也托他们的福，我重新振作，变成今天的我。也因为他们，我坚持学韩文，认识了很多朋友，唱歌技巧也进步了，人生改写了很多很多。因为他们，这三年我过得很充实，也很忙碌，虽然只见过他们两次，但也很满足。当然，我几乎把所有的时间，都给了他们，算是我的男朋友们了。

今天，当我驾车时，突然把唱机转去听CD，因为我想听他们的声音。第一张CD是他们的，第一首歌是‘STAND BY U’，听到在中的第一句歌词，握着方向盘的手真的抖了，再听到chorus部分的歌词，我真的留下眼泪哭了。

君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいて
Where are you now? Who are you being with?

どんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう
What kind of clothes are you wearing? What are you doing and laughing at?

僕はここにいて 今もここにいて
I am right here, even now, I am right here.

君と二人でまた会えると信じているよ
And I still believe that we will see each other again, you're the only one I'm thinking of.

君がどこにいて 誰とどこにいて
No matter where you are, no matter who you are being with

どんな夢を見て 何して笑っていても
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of, or what you are doing and laughing at

ずっとここにいて 今もここにいて
I will be here forever, even now I am right here

君といつの日か 逢えると信じているよ
Believing in a day that we will meet again

我不祈求自己能和他们做朋友，可是就希望就算他们要解散，也不会是一这种形式来结束这组合的名运。其中一位朋友说，这新闻对她来说，等于失恋般备受打击，上网的目的也好像没有了。也许吧，因为对一些不认识他们或对他们不关心的人来说，东方神起算什么？不过是个歌手嘛。可是对于他们的歌迷们，这确实是个相当的打击。

本来我不想把心里的不快写出来，因为我实在写不下。可是，5 分钟前我下了朴有天的LOVE BYE LOVE演唱会live版，坐在地上望着banner上他弹钢琴的背影，正是这首歌，用mp3听见他的钢琴弹奏，一句一句的把歌词慢慢的唱出来，突然他说了，

“울지마,너무 미안해”

我是真的哭出声音来了，我赶快用手遮住我的哭声，感觉就像是他站在我面跟我说分手般，除了哭，我没有别的反应了。这是我生平除了前男友外，第二次为了男人而哭了，而且是五个不认识我的男人，多没用。可是，别人可以为了MJ哭得死来活去，为什么我不可以？他们也是影响我人生的重要男人啊。

现在已经是凌晨两点半了，我真的睡不下，因为他们的记者会，今天就举行了，到底会变成怎样呢？他们，是不是也在韩国那边，和我一样担心得睡不着呢？