Uncomfortable

30th June 2009, 19:13pm

Stayed overnight at my BOSS’s house last night, it’s big, got air con, got maid, got big bed, soft pillow & boaster, got internet, etc; BUT, I can’t fall asleep easily.

And now, Monday, after work, I go back my own house, still without water supply, but I’m happy. My house small, no air con, no maid, no big bed, no internet, etc; BUT, I can sleep anytime anywhere inside my house.

Chinese always say,

“Dragon bed can’t compare with dog hole”.

Like my mum says, home sweet home. I think so. But due to my apartment car park problem, I can’t stay here if I late back. That’s why, I can’t enjoy my ‘Home Sweet Home’ idea. Sigh…

Shift

Mum wanna shift to another place, cuz since last 2 days our apartment no water supply, even the lift got problem. Actually before this, i think to shift too, cuz parking problem. Mum informed our house owner just now, if the water supply problem cannot be settled, we'll move on the coming 15th July. But i'm afraid that time i'm damn busy for this project ending works.

To find a new place to shift, not as easy as you think. I dunno where can i get a suitable place to stay.

1) Convenient to take public transport for my mum to go work

2) Got parking and safe

3) Maintenance ok

4) House rent not over 700 bucks

5) Good enough for my mum putting inside all her belongings

I'm dizzy while typing this, maybe i not yet recover from sickness. And, I'm at my site now. The clouds above my head, FULL; the sky so wide.

[HQ / FULL PV] Tohoshinki Stand By U ( DBSK ver)

Finally THSK version pv out, personally love this song so much, cuz of the music, rhythm and lyric.

So dizzy....

I can't help myself but very dizzy, till i feel wanted to faint.

fOOD pOISONING

Thursday morning at 3, i was diarrhoea, and stomachache badly, till morning 8. Thought that will i admitted to hospital cuz dunno what had happened, after visited company panel doc, he said,

"Food Poisoning." with a very cool face. That time me and Ms Ling speechless.

"Take MC and today only can eat porridge." again, his cool face.

I went home with medicine, staying home alone, but quite enjoy cuz this is my first 'HOLIDAY' for whole day. I slept 3 hours after took the medicine.

Now at office,feel no focus point from my eyes...

"Good Horse won't eat back side grass"

Chinese got a proverb,

"Good horse won't eat back side grass".

This I'm totally agreed. I'm regreted deadly back here working, all my friend, i'm wrong, please forgive me.

When your boss said you create OFFICE POLITIC; question i wanna ask:
1) when i got time sit inside office? I remember everyday i drive outside doing my layout alone, do my quotation alone, when i got time?
2) to create office politic need a GANG / GROUP ppl anti other ppl, but now only me, myself and i fighting for my pride. Stop talking to others also assumed as CREATE OFFICE POLITIC meh?

Some more, to help the weak? That means i'm the strong? Why other sales ppl's delivery job have to done by me? Why i have to teach their customers? Will i get any commission? NO! definately NO! Why my sales get under cut by other and my boss still side her and told me "nevermind lah" ? Then what for i pick up the phone for sales and my commission?

As a purchase ppl, working here over 4 yrs, to get a price also need to wait 10 yrs? After that if delay the sales or customers go to other competitors it will be my fault, how unfair!

As a clerk, already works here over half year, typing is the basic thing to do EVERYDAY; why still everytime also got excuse to type the wrong address, phone number, or attn person name?

I don't understand, i won't understand, and i don't want to understand their problem. After this project, i think i need to find another job.

边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！

记得‘溏心风暴’里，李思琪说的话吗？

“边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！”

简直一时成为佳话。现在发生在我的身上，我觉得，我有权说了。

Frustrated

Everybody got their principle, especially in working. Today I’m so frustrated and very disappointed, again. (I supposed to sing again and again by 2 pm) Why? I don’t understand why my sales got passed to other sales gal? I don’t know why. And, even the so called BOSS 做人做事also no principle. (Nat, the Chinese = zou yan zou si) After I heard it, totally speechless; but I showed them my ‘silent rebel’. I immediate settled my paper works and straight drive to Shah Alam, cuz I no eyes see. Plus, I scare myself will shout out again.

For so many times they said I’m selfish, from now on, I will be. There’s no reason to care others, cuz they will betray you anytime. All I have to do, is self protect. After this project, when I start sit comfortably inside office, I’m sure will cut them off.

Just now, I went Jusco bought a frappuccino tried to chill myself, but failed. Still, i'm damn angry!!

At site -- Glenmarie, Shah Alam

Yesterday back from Ipoh, and now i have to work hard at site cuz got changes according my customer and Mr. Tan said.

Yet, now raining and my shifting works can't do smoothly T___T

All the UNCLEs (power point, ceiling board, gypsum board, painting, structure... Ah HEAD), pls make the works as goos as you can.

SAND

For someone familiar with this name, SAND, you know what i'm talked about. I went youtube watched the videos again and again, tell you what, i still can't believe my singing video got posted in public. People comes watch it, comment it, i feel nice. It's like a new try to me, in my life time. As my age and my attitude, this really a BIG step forward. i really thanks my fellow 'group members', Dawn, Alyn & Nat. Without you 3, there won't be SAND. After some HAPPENING, i think, it's time to find you all gather again. At least, i know you all not that kind 'GAY SAU'. (Nat, u know what i say right?)

Take care my friends.

How to overcome …

My project already at 2nd week, I drive to Glenmarie every day, I meet my client every day, I meeting with the other supplies every day, dealing with the workers every day, have my lunch or so called HIGH TEA every day, driving back from site but jam at federal every day. What I left? I’m not sure, but at least these are the most I remember. And, one more, I have to fight with my company’s purchase department gal and the other accounts gal. Fed up to talk to them almost a month.

I found myself very stress. One day after work, I was on the way driving back to home, stopped at the traffic waiting it green. Just a second, yes, just a glance of time, I feel tired, suddenly wanted a shoulder to lean on. I tell you, at that moment I was very depressed and urge to find someone to lean on. But after I reached home, I found no one. Of course I got no one; I don’t even have a boy friend yet.

Lately meet back few primary school classmates, all of them married, have children. Sometimes I kinda jealous them cuz they got their own family; but sometimes I feel I’m lucky not yet step inside the MARRY TOMB. Actually I still got a lot of things not yet achieve, not yet experience. But, in the other hand, about love, I already experienced too much, happiness but sadness part the most. The one who hurt me most already married too. What about me? Still alone.

LA Lakers

For such a long time I didn’t watch basketball, 5 months I think. Just now when I turned to ASTRO channel 812, its NBA finals live, LA Lakers vs. Orlando Magic, game 1. So amazing I caught the right timing and watching it till now. The game almost controlled by Kobe Bryant, LA Lakers till 3rd quarter, 20 points different. He’s my idol! From secondary till 2008 Beijing Olympic, I watched all the matches USA played, he’s amazing!

Since I was primary school, I loved to watch NBA thru free TV. Then when I was in secondary school, I’m more interested in it and that’s why I supported ASTRO till now. Basketball, I love to watch, I used to play. But I didn’t really paid full attention to practice and patient continues the damn tough training. Some of my male friends play very well in secondary school; they went competitions and won certain level of prizes.

Sometimes I think, if I keep on staying at female basketball team and stand the tough training the coach gives, will I be good basketball player too? At least I think in secondary school period, my life will change and full with glorious, maybe. Who knows?

Touching

Today after work, I went home on time. Switched on my laptop and thought to burn my videos in DVD. When I tried to ‘filter’ those unused / not interesting videos, I found one made my cried.

In Korea, there’s a program name STAR KING, which is a talent show for ANYTHING. Yup, anything, e.g.: singing, special kungfu, cooking, etc. This time, they had a 3rd time winner came this program. All of them are handicap kids, they can’t see, their face look alike retarded, but they all can sing, especially the 2 boys. First song they sang was “Happy Day” from the OST of Sister Act II. I love this song when I first watched this movie; I even bought the DVD and watch it all the time. I never know there still got other people will like it too. When they started sang, my tears dropped nonstop. I really can’t stand cuz I think all of them so talented and brave.

The 2nd song was sang by the 2 boys with a blind man plays harmonica who very well known in Korea. The blind man the choir teacher; he’s the one who encourage the entire handicap small kids join their choir. And, the 2nd song was “I Believe I Can Fly”. Again, my tears dropped like flood. Not only their singing very best, but, I had a thought at that time. Back to 4 yrs ago, my ex-bf loved this song so much; but I was not. Although I like this song, but I hate it after my ex-bf sang thousand times in front of me, made me feel irritated. But compared with the boys, I suddenly felt this song and lyric super touching! This song is like talking about them. How brave they are. Look at those normal people, still wasting their precious time doing nothing. How shame they are.

Look at them, I feel shame of myself. Even though they can’t see, but they still try hard on learning how to sing and perform with full confident in front of stranger. Of cuz, one of the reasons is, they can’t see anything. Anyway, I really learnt a lot from them, and I tell myself, I must have their spirit and live on bravely and confidently.

Busy

One of my friend complained I didn’t update blog lately, till she can’t update my life story. Haha, I didn’t know she got time stop by and read my blog cuz I thought she’s so busy on working at US. Well, me too. June, my project started and I have to go Glenmarie, Shah Alam very frequent. Em, almost one week time I have to go there 4 days, and all time stand by to amend the layout and prepare the quotation for additional items. So sorry I can’t even pick up your phone to chat long time as before we did.

It’s a good start but still a tough work. I’m not only taking care of this project, but other customers too. Driving fast while thinking how to cut other cars and talking on phone in the same time, it’s already normal to me. Haha, I wonder when the police will catch me. Touch wood!!! Touch wood!!

I’m planning to take 3 days leave back to Ipoh, cuz I want a rest. And, I wanna eat Ipoh nice food. Ya, still PLANNING, so don’t know when will ACTUAL happen. My mum persuading me go Malacca cuz she wants goes A’Famosa. Yup, I will plan on this coming month end or next beginning of month.