Busy....from sumthing...

Wow~!! It's been a VERY VERY VERY ( x infinity) long time i didnt update my blog, even though nobody care at all, but i feel so sorry to him / her ( pls, i'm talking my blog ok? :p ) Well, maybe it's becuz i'm so damn poor in english, totally cant express well wat i'm actually think inside my mind. But some of my frens told me, even thru my mouth also cannot express well, wat lah, you all, i'm trying so hard you know~!? Anyway, now i'm using the BROKEN english AGAIN, watever, i just type it out K? Ppl who dont understand just leave; ppl who understand a bit, also no need stay too long, cuz my blog very SIEN ( please say it by using Cantonese, & u'll know wat does it mean).

Em... past few months had happened so many things, till i forgot wat had happened actually, be honest , YES... only one thing, my grandpa, he passed away finally, on 21st May 2007. My aunt & I saw him left us, that's the most hardest time i've ever been for my past 26 yrs. We actually not really close to each other, i remember when he still alive, i always try to escape for the Sunday breakfast gathering. Even though at the last week he still kept on finding have breakfast with him, and i did. But i scold him for sumthing (i also forgot) . I feel very guilty after all, even now i'm typing, i feel sad. I thought I wont feel so sad on it, but the truth is NOT. I was like never cry out during funeral, of cuz at the second he stopped breathing my tears dropped. But after all, i was like ... you know... em... just like abnormal... on that night i supposed attend my korean class, but i didnt, cuz i dont wan... i had some feeling that made me dunno wat to do to calm down myself. I was driving without target... pointless... dunno wat should i do, dunno where should i go... i'm so angry at that moment too, angry with my grandpa, living me without giving me any sign. Maybe he did, only i didnt look it seriously; and i angry with myself also, and i finally... cryied out... stupid me... at last, I went Queen's Park Sushi King had my meal, alone... i ate a lot, without tasting it, just put inside my mouth, and i feel like i'm a fool...

Now already too late for it, just guilty & regret always appear whenever i think about my grandpa. And i realize, i never take a photo with my grandpa, i'm too bad. Now i knew myself, really SUCKS~!! Sigh...