Dinner

Just had my dinner with Alyn, we went Sg Wang 6th floor korean restaurant. Just wanna have a meet and see the notes on the wall, and sharing our lately happening.

Above note, was written by someone, reason i took photo is because her dreams / wishes are my wish too, hahahh~!!

2010, i think i just calm, won't think too much. Study bah.....

JJ 林俊傑 [第幾個100天] OFFICIAL MV

Super love this song, especially lyric..

未公开金贞恩的巧克力神起部分

Long time didnt hear Jae Jung sings this song, and never know Chang Min can sings this kind of song too.

Libertango(리베르탱고) - Yoyoma(요요마)

Just like this song so much...

베토벤바이러스 - 리베르탱고-정희연(송옥순)

what's dream about? This is it. Dare to chase. Never give up.

My Violin

I took back my violin from service, changed 4 strings and tuned. The music store owner asked me,

"When you bought this violin?" - Owner.

"More than 10 yrs ago." - Me

"How long you didn't touch it?" - Owner.

"Haha, also more than 10 yrs. Why?" - Me.

"Cuz the violin still in very good condition, and the sound so nice. Where you get this? I saw the wording inside the violin body is German. You bought from German?" - Owner.

"It's really from German, but i bought at Ipoh music school." - Me.

"What grade you're before you stopped?" - Owner.

"Em... Grade 3 or 4? I don't remember. But now i don't even remember the fingering well. Haha!!!" - Me.

"Is it? Nevermind, come this Sunday class, let's see Ms Ong put u which grade." - Owner.

"Ok." - Me.

Not so SHOW OFF, but just too surprised my violin still in good condition till others curious to ask about that. I really forgot all the fingering but ONE, just ONE, the normal A Major. Don't know why.

Anyway, just enjoy~!!

Beethoven Virus

I bought the DVD 3 weeks ago cuz the download version ending i lost it, so regretted. 8tv last few weeks shown it too. A coincident i watched it and made up my mind bought the DVD.

Now, i'm watching. And, it did bring me back to the dream. A dream to become a musician. But it already far far away story. I dunno when will i turn back to the dream, but i will try.

I read a book before, "NEVER TOO LATE". Talked about a middle age man learned cello at age 40, but still, he can plays well. Well, i'm going 30, should be ok to chase my dream right? Everybody got right to chase their dream, either me. I was a girl who always wanna escape, yes, i am. But i think within this 4 years, i changed a lot.

This is the time, i wanna cross the line, step forward.

Wash Away My Bad Luck

Early Sunday morning woke up like normal working day and called up my aunt, Nga Nga, for breakfast as she asked for yesterday. But, sigh... she still sleeping that time, wtf... I won't sleep back cuz the sun so strong and hot from outside thru my curtain. I drove to 33 Restaurant had my breakfast curry mee hoon & white coffee.

Finished all, on the way back home, had a sudden thought,

"I wanna wash away my bad luck, my car too." Immediate turned my wheel towards to car wash centre.

I dunno will it help or not, but psycologically, from my mind, i think it will.

Superstitous.

My Story

Last night midnight time, i still feel headache about my accident case, i had a thought to read my story, just random found one. Read & read & read... I was following the story line and the climax too, for that second, I talked to myself,

"Shall i give up working and continue my story will do leh?" Rediculous.

Maggie, i owe you the story, and as i promise, i will write soon. Yup, is SOON. Cuz i also curious how the characters and story go on. Haha...

RM289

Saturday supposed sing K with frens, i was expected it coming so long you know? But early morning i received a call from Kajang to settle the accident happening after works. So the final result is, the fellow already repaired his bike and asked for motorcycle repair money RM289. Yup, is RM289, i was shocked why he wanted to repair and doesn't want go report to police. After some argument, at the end, i paid. BUT, i asked him signed on the bill and i wrote some kind like a agreement letter which proved he agreed i paid that amount and there's no further claim after this. Of cuz i asked a police as a witness that i paid to the old man by cash. Finally, settled.

RM289 not a small amount, but i feel wasted too. But think another way, if the money can settle the problem, why not? My life wont only THIS RM289 with me, there're still a lot of RM289 coming to me. I won't think too much on it.

Must...

I wanna end the problem asap

Morning

A so called busy morning to me and i really no time to think about the accident anymore. And dont forget, compound i also need to pay money, and even have to pay to the motorcycle repairing fees, all MONEY, if i'm not work hard, how i settle?

All my frens, i'm fine and thanks ur sms, messages at fb, calls. But just mood bad. Nothing related to u all, just that accident made me feel SIEN.

Last night korean class Dawn was not there, she sick. My & Cyrus after class went for dinner, chat a lot about Korea & Korean. It's a very good talk with him.

P.S. Dawn, u really look & act like a REAL KOREAN to him, hahah~!!!

Accident

From yesterday i felt i was so bad luck already, who knows today accident somemore. Shit.

I already fed up to tell the story here cuz i've been asking by so many ppl, especially traffic police. I was surprisingly steady and settled the case in a very PROFESSIONAL way. Tired and angry and hungry from the accident happened till i back office now. The only thing is can be ASSUMED lucky is, the old indian man didnt get serious hurt, neither the motorcycle. My car? Man, i'm driving Mitsubishi Pajero, tough enough to stand from any bang. 2nd, i met a nice looking doctor in emergency room, Dr. Teh. I kept asking him about the condition of the old indian man, but till the part i requested for the old man medical report to show the police,

"Are you going to give me the uncle's condition report to show the police? cuz i have to go report now." - Me

"Huh? No need here, you just straight go report to the traffic police will do." - Dr. Teh

"Why? We supposed to bring along right? To show them this old man in good condition." - Me

"In Malaysia nothing to do with it..." - Dr. Teh

"But it supposed a must right? Why Malaysia like that?" - Me

"... Which country you come from?" - Dr. Teh

"Huh? Hahaha..." - Me

I just laughed and didnt answer his question but he also smile back to me at that moment. Not that i wanna refuse to admitt I AM MALAYSIAN; but just his question made me feel like not to answer it.

Well, wait tomorrow the old indian man's X-Ray report out then will know whether i need to compoun or not.

Really a BAD BAD BAD day. Shit.

Blogger Templates

After a TRAINING by KY & Dawn, changed the blog template, i felt regret cuz i have to find back all other applications. Kinda make me sick of it, cuz lazy.

Anyway, today will be a very tough day again, sigh... i might not in good mood some how. Sigh...

First Snow @ Korea

Dont miss understand from the title above, I'm talk about Mae Juin, just saw her photos at facebook, so excited and happy. Snowing really make ppl happy in certain of way, especially to us who are living in summer ONLY country ppl. Last time when i was at Beijing, i merely wanna run out from the airport, but cannot loh T__T i only can looked at the snow from inside the airport.

Sigh... 너무 부럽다!!!

Focus Point...

Shit... My bag gone...

I supposed get it last week, who knows the bag gone already when i went there just now. Why like that... T____T The shop owner asked me ordered for black color one, but i refused, cuz the feeling different. I rather don't carry any.

Sigh.....

너 때문에

Do you gals know AFTER SCHOOL? A group of girls idol singers, not that popular here i think, but now at Korea quite HOT. At the beginning i also not interested in their music cuz too normal, but till i listen their latest single, the song name 너 때문에 (BECAUSE OF YOU), totally can't stop but listen to it everytime i drive, repeat & repeat & repeat... addicted. Haha...

1st week of Dec going to end, times pass so fast, going to finish 2009. This year EXTREMELY fast comes the end of year, till i dunno what i had done in this whole year. Projects & travel. Nothing else but that.

Coming Christmas i will go Singapore with frens. Hopefully can have a nice holiday and memorable christmas celebration there ^^

Bak Kuk Teh vs Korean Food

I remember from last week till today, i already ate 3 times bak kuk teh, 4 times korean food, continuosly. A fren of mine said i'm crazy; another fren of mine said i'm so rich; the other fren of mine said why not western food. Just, it's only JUST wanna eat that, feeling there, so follow loh.

Back from work...

Now is 1030am, i'm sitting inside office, my IT place. Already 3 days i didnt online, feel tired to online see new things.

Feeling upset and disappointed. Why? Haha, some feel they got enough experience to deal with anything, but they don't know they're making other suffer outside. Deep? No lah.

I'm getting well now, only flu & cough. Everything will be alright. And, i'll back to NORMAL life soon ^^

*P.S.: I went Garden trying to search my lovely present, but failed.

열병 (fever), 감기(flu), 기침(cough)

3rd day, I still sick as mentioned above title, i dunno what i did last week made me sick. Now even my eyes started HEAT UP @_@

Sigh... i tried rest earlier and took meds; but since i'm too stress for project, cannot be healed easily.

Thanks Alyn & Mag, i'll be fine.

Sitting at office, just back from site, no mood to work but online surfing. Waiting the time reach, 1800pm. Tonight, I wanna eat BAK KUK TEH.

Cry...

Today really very CHAM, sigh... dunno how to write out.

Night time worked till 8pm then can off work from my hotel site. Too tired & stress out after talked with lady boss. On the way driving back to house i listened to mp3, all fast & tempo songs, made my angry reached the top, and i suddenyl turned my wheel and drove to 33 Restaurant eat Bak Kuk Teh.

Along the road i'm in a very tension & angry mood, cuz from my driving speed i knew it, and the songs also so NGAM that timing. 6 mins to left i reach my destiny, mp3 playing 황태경live "어떡하죠". Dunno why, once i listen his first sentence of the lyric, my tears dropped non stop & cried. I even sang & cried in the same time, heartbreak.

Sigh...

Monday sick badly...shit...

From last night i already started fever, but didn't expect IT'll continue till today. It's not a good sign cuz today my works so FULL @ Fraser Place KL a.k.a my hotel site. Fever, sore throat & flu, hopefully not H1N1.

When i woke up this early morning, 1st thought: how bout take leave today? After that 2 thought came out: No, cuz i need money. I stood up immediately then rush to get ready myself to work. Since when i'm so money minded? Sigh...

So tired listen my purchaser talking to my supplier that my locker cannot send today, and they even said "if you not satisfy then cancel lah". What the hell of that kind of service they provide? Promise then promise, why business ppl always cannot keep their promise??

I have to do something, drink something, calm down a bit then go in front my customer and let them scold me GAO GAO.

Shit...

Life

I got a fren who going to marry a korean guy, and her fiance have to base Turkey 2 yrs, so their wedding have to postpone. But she will go Turkey this coming Friday and will stay there 2 months. How nice!!!

Sigh... sometimes we really needed to admit, we all really TONG YAN EM TONG MEANG ah (同人不同命）...

I got another fren, who dying wanna go Korea, but she cant. Like myself, i also wanted go Korea, but end up go China 1st, haha, how funny... Dying to have something, always wont get it. I learned.

Changed

Lately i heard the most from the ppl surrounding me is, YOU CHANGED.

Yes, i am. And, thanks for those who said now i become prettier, or some said me started go on sexy line. Well, actually it makes me happy cuz the result is that OBVIOUS.

Money & patient made NOW me.

High Cut

Today went Time Square had dinner with Dawn, then bought a lip gross from Etude. Suddenly had a thought to go Ms. Chong's shop see weather got any special things can be grabbed back or not. Haha, i really lucky, i found THEM.

Relax = Boring? Nah....

Now sitting on my sofa, right side TV on, front is my laptop which i'm typing my words now. The only Saturday night i didn't go out or hang around with frens. A bit EMPTY, but not till make me feel boring cuz internet got a lot of thing let me discover, hihi ^^

Where're my frens? Haha, all got dated and i'm the one who get left behind. Supposed have dinner with Dawn, but she feel sick, of cuz i'm ok with it, thinking go visit her also. Even Mag also sick badly at States, so worried you 2.

Now thinking should i go out or stay at home, hihi... Will update at next post, haha~!!!

*P.S. He's my latest dream guy, haha~!! And, this yepp, i will grab it soon!!!!!!

Where am i?

Haha, supposed to write a best title, but i think it's good enough, cuz i'd lost for almost 3 months, away from my blog. I feel guilty because the reason i away from HERE was that STUPID. Still, i will put my full effort to update my story here.

Then, what i most crazy about now? Haha, must be "미남이시네요" this korean drama. Another idol drama which captured my eyes, took away my heart mind & soul, some more changed my thinking, too. I tell myself, next year maybe a tough year to me according the chinese horoscope prediction, haha, BUT, i wanna earn as much as i can and fly to Korea. After the China trip, i saw a lot and learned a lot from history, environment, ppl, and etc.

Oh ya, you gals watch 2012? Haha, it really a meaningful movie, although most of them said the story a bit exaggerated. But who cares? I like it will do. Life is so short, let's enjoy~!!!

等待

我在等待。。。

虽说我很怕爱情，可是我也很兴奋期待~！！！！这种‘是，又不是’的暧昧时刻最开心~！！

Today is my birthday~!!

15th September lah~!! Today i take leave, i should say, every year i will take leave during my birthday cuz i don't wanna work on my birthday, how torture @_@

Anyway, wish me everything goes VERY SMOOTH~!!!

Love Myself

See my header? Yeah, just now don't know SOT which nerve, kept on taking photo myself, like i'm so photogenic, of cuz the truth is NOT. Well, a woman near to 30, maybe will have this habit, trying to act young and show others 'I AM YOUNG', hahah...

These 2 weeks i'm so easy headache, take the Panadol Active Fast like taking meal that frequent. I knew it's not good for help but can't help. And i found the reason why i headache:

FAT = HIGH BLOOD PRESURE

Not kidding you all, now even myself also feel I'M FAT~!!! Arh~!!! Gotta stop eating so much and have to follow my lady boss go jogging!!!

Surprisingly Reunion~!!

Never thought will have the chance to meet back those primary & secondary school mates, haha... And i found they changed a lot, either me (according their words about me).

Suddenly a lot of memories flashing back and played like a drama series, it's amazing but scary. Most of them married and got children, only a few of us still remain single. I thought only me the winner as the Diamond Wong 5 (钻石王老五), haha... Friends separated all over the world i think, they travel around, they met their soulmates, and finally started their own family. Some of them even 180 degrees changed compare the old time. When i looked at the photos, i can't stopped but laughing out loud till my colleagues asked "Now what?" Haha, told her what had happened and she told me the same,

"You'll never know 10 yrs later, all your old friends sure will become more rediculous." Then she walked away.

I think so.

So now, what i wanted to do, is make sure myself look young whenever they see me, cuz most of them said,

"Why you look like 18 22? The picture is you?" or,
"What had happened to you? Eat what medicine?"

Haha... Thanks you all, i wish i can maintain my YOUNG at least 5 more years.

A New Begin

Because of the court case in between TVXQ & SM, I believe we all feel tired too. Lately their schedule a little bit not that GROUPY anymore.

2 days before Yu Chun and Jae Jung went Japan attended a small concert promoted their new song "Colors~ Melody & Harmony" and sang other songs, too. Among of its, they choose BEGIN, used to be performed by 5 people, but now only by 2 of them. At first when I came across the news about this, I was like, ‘My goodness, how they perform?’ . But after I listened it, my worried gone. And suddenly I have another thought, in future if these 2 ppl wanna form a group, I don’t think will be any problem to them. It’s not that I wanna separate 5 of them, but the situation for this case seems not that good enough or clear. The worst ending will be living from SM, but to continue as TVXQ by sharing with 2 different company, I think it’s not possible.

Be honest, to me, it still can acceptable. No matter what kind of way they come out in future, what kind of combination they form out, I’m still support 5 of them. Like my title said, this will be their New Begin.

Timeless

Today just downloaded my beloved singer, very talented singer, Khalil Fong's new album 'TIMELESS'!!! All the tracks are old song, i love his new version on all the songs, at least it's another taste and feel to me. Especially Faye Wong's 'RED BEAN', lovely...

오미빈하고 박유천 둘이 정말 닮아...

I don't know since when i started notice him, and i don't know since when i realized we're same. I'm talked about our thought and attitude, our taste and chioce. It's hard to make other believe, but we both don't know each other, both not living in the same country, both no even have a point which can link us together. Of cuz, he's an idol that everybody knew, crazy about to. If there's a wish i can make, I have one. Haha... I can't tell here, cuz it won't DREAM COMES TRUE loh...

Micky Yoochun- The Sensible Fool.
Confident,Strong (mentally la.) Kind and thoughtful. Generally socially unawkward. Keeps problems to self, only confiding in people whom you trust. Usually coming off as happy and cheerful, you can brighten the day for anyone. You're a can of corn, and nearly anyone has the tool to open you up. Yes, you're really as corny as the farmer's yearly harvest. You're lotsa fun anyday. You've probably driven people to embarrassment by making them guffaw out loud in public like that. Flirtatious. You're likely popular and you make good use of it. You may play the fool and all, but your family and other loved ones are whom you hold close to your heart and would never hurt them unless you had a reaaaaaaaaaaaaally good reason. Really. You can tell right from wrong. Most of the time, anyway. You often succumb to temptations, and somehow put play before work, even when the other half of your brain is kicking your conscience about it. Generally optimistic and lovable, friends just can't say 'no' to you, nor can they bear to hurt your feelings on purpose. You're the popular kid! People love you, and they can't stay away. You leave great impressions upon first meetings, but not necessarily keep the lasting image. Of course, it depends on what kind of person you meet with. You think about others a lot, but still harbours selfish intentions from time to time. You are possibly drifty, or seem that way, 'coz you love to daydream. Not a bad pastime, yeah. Aside from it being quite a waste of time. You probably look back and reflect on your enormous time wastage quite often. Control your thoughts a bit more and let yourself prioritise efficiently. Disallowing 'play' to triumph over 'work' will be a good start. It'll help to get your act together. You may have your own insecurities, but you have your own ways to deal with it. You're altogether a great friend and entertaining chatmate, and you pretty much love the life you live. :) P/s. Just guessing, you're probably a Gemini or Aries, or are of the blood type O.

Special Dedicate to Maggie... Evisu Model...

Maggie, I supposed put these all on facebook, but failed. So, I hope you'll like it lah~!!

I hate 6877

I don't wanna explain why, but i hate this number 6877.

Broken String

Today i fetched Kok How took ABRSM piano exam at Hotel Istana. When we arrived very early tried to regist that time, he told me didn't bring IC and the crew said, "NO IC, NO EXAM." Pissed off and no choice but drive back asap to get his wallet. This fellow really... sigh...

Well, of cuz everything on time and when he stepped inside the room, i sit aside waiting. Looking around the corridor, parents waiting with anxious facial expression, cuz their children taking exam inside a very cold room. (I experienced before, inside really cold @_@) And, all of them worried about their children will nervous till can't play well in front of the examiner.

When the time Kok How's playing piano, he's nervous too. And, suddenly i think back very long long ago story, back to... em... 20 yrs ago? Ah... SO DAMN LONG AGO leh... Yup, i took piano exam too, and i mere don't have any idea why i was there at that moment i was playing, haha... After few years when i was in secondary school, i started learn violin for 3 yrs, but i didn't take exam, cuz i scared. In my opinion, music instrument is for fun; if you force me to take exam, i rather quit. That' why, at the end i quited and the violin staying next to me till now, it still there. But it got one string broken so long, and i just ignored it.

Now, i think of learn back violin if possible, I mean: money, time & space. So, if yes, i will update here.

Online @ Home

Finally i got my broadband @ home, at least won't feel bore after watching ASTRO. Got more time on my works. Ya correct, i'm talking about working.

Sometimes i doesn't wanna work at office cuz lack of time staying / sitting on my chair doing paper works; so, i rather bring things back home continue. Some of my customers or suppliers complained me so bored cuz don't wanna go out with them during happy hour. Ya, i rather stay home watch ASTRO, i rather play my laptop, i rather eat at home, i rather read book at home, etc.

You know what? Lately i'm so into a korean drama call "He Can't Marry", story about a woman doctor & a well known architecture guy already reached 40 yrs old, BUT still single. It's very realistically, everytime i watch it, i also think the same,

"Will i end up my life like them?"

Of cuz i'm not a professional like them, but at least i got a job which still single like them. Sigh... Anyway, if you interested, have a watch on it, "결혼 못 하는 남자"

分裂

8月1日，当天我抱着兴奋的心情等待我的banner回来时，我却收到一个噩耗，“东方神起面临解散的危机”。等到我接过banner，回到家把自己的那张挂上的那一刻，我望着它好一段时间，突然我有那么一点想哭，可是我没有。没有一个很正确的字眼能形容我的心情，我想，用人类最为接近的字眼，应该是‘分裂’了。我的banner，是一个背对着我弹钢琴的朴有天。今年的演唱会我还没有看，可是照片就很多很多，特别是他的背影照。

很久以前，我也有说过我和东方神起的姻缘，也托他们的福，我重新振作，变成今天的我。也因为他们，我坚持学韩文，认识了很多朋友，唱歌技巧也进步了，人生改写了很多很多。因为他们，这三年我过得很充实，也很忙碌，虽然只见过他们两次，但也很满足。当然，我几乎把所有的时间，都给了他们，算是我的男朋友们了。

今天，当我驾车时，突然把唱机转去听CD，因为我想听他们的声音。第一张CD是他们的，第一首歌是‘STAND BY U’，听到在中的第一句歌词，握着方向盘的手真的抖了，再听到chorus部分的歌词，我真的留下眼泪哭了。

君はどこにいて 誰とどこにいて
Where are you now? Who are you being with?

どんな服を着て 何して笑ってるんだろう
What kind of clothes are you wearing? What are you doing and laughing at?

僕はここにいて 今もここにいて
I am right here, even now, I am right here.

君と二人でまた会えると信じているよ
And I still believe that we will see each other again, you're the only one I'm thinking of.

君がどこにいて 誰とどこにいて
No matter where you are, no matter who you are being with

どんな夢を見て 何して笑っていても
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of, or what you are doing and laughing at

ずっとここにいて 今もここにいて
I will be here forever, even now I am right here

君といつの日か 逢えると信じているよ
Believing in a day that we will meet again

我不祈求自己能和他们做朋友，可是就希望就算他们要解散，也不会是一这种形式来结束这组合的名运。其中一位朋友说，这新闻对她来说，等于失恋般备受打击，上网的目的也好像没有了。也许吧，因为对一些不认识他们或对他们不关心的人来说，东方神起算什么？不过是个歌手嘛。可是对于他们的歌迷们，这确实是个相当的打击。

本来我不想把心里的不快写出来，因为我实在写不下。可是，5 分钟前我下了朴有天的LOVE BYE LOVE演唱会live版，坐在地上望着banner上他弹钢琴的背影，正是这首歌，用mp3听见他的钢琴弹奏，一句一句的把歌词慢慢的唱出来，突然他说了，

“울지마,너무 미안해”

我是真的哭出声音来了，我赶快用手遮住我的哭声，感觉就像是他站在我面跟我说分手般，除了哭，我没有别的反应了。这是我生平除了前男友外，第二次为了男人而哭了，而且是五个不认识我的男人，多没用。可是，别人可以为了MJ哭得死来活去，为什么我不可以？他们也是影响我人生的重要男人啊。

现在已经是凌晨两点半了，我真的睡不下，因为他们的记者会，今天就举行了，到底会变成怎样呢？他们，是不是也在韩国那边，和我一样担心得睡不着呢？

One Day Off

23rd July 2009, today I took leave, but I woke up earlier than normal working day.

0715: Wake up take bath
0815: Fetch mum go Wangsa Maju Jusco
0900: Go BAE International buy meds for mum
1000: Go Jalan Cheras Mc Donald’s have breakfast
1100: Go KLCC watch Harry Potter 6
1120: Start movie
1400: Go Kinokuniya
1500: Back office
1530: Go Jusco Maluri Black Canyon Coffee Restaurant have lunch
1630: Go MPH
1700: Back home

Already 1 year didn’t step inside cinema; today went cinema alone watched Harry Potter, feeling good. I think I skipped episode 4 & 5, that’s why I’m not so sure what had happened for certain parts or scenes. But never mind, I still enjoyed the environment inside.

After Harry Potter, I thought to watch Transformer or Ice Age, but I gave up on Transformer cuz I think I can watch DVD at home. Then I decided watch Ice Age 3D, BUT!!! I’m so unlucky, the 3D version only at 1800 evening, so I gave up, too.

I went Kinokuniya collected my magazine and found my comic came out new volume. I tried to convince myself not to walk so fast (my normal walking speed), cuz I have times to enjoy my holiday. Slow down my speed, I thought of buying a 3D Max book or AutoCAD 2010 book, for a long time choosing, I bought a 45mm thickness, AutoCAD 2010 teaching book at RM111.80. Sigh, actually I feel heartache cuz really expensive, but for my future, I bought it.

For this whole month, July, I bought a lot of things, especially books. Not much money left, have to save now T________T

Hush Puppies

昨天突然不知道为什么，心血来潮跑进HUSH PUPPIES的鞋店买了一双舒舒服服的鞋子，虽然很贵，RM170，但穿上去真的很舒服。

Scandal

I watched Nichkhun’s Scandal, I got a question,

“if all the episode ending the idol also think that dating will tie down their career because they are celebrity, and personally or one sided think that maybe himself can’t spend more time on the girl, then what’s the point this program out?”

Be frank, I think the producer is smart. Even though he/she knew this is NO MEANING when comes to the end, BUT, it brings DREAMS or IMAGINATION to all the idols’ fans. From commerce angle, it’ll bring the audience rating.

But, I still wonder, will Nichkhun stop contact with the girl? I don’t know. But when he asked,

“형도 연애하고 싶잖아요?”

I think his heart was shaking, 흔들렸었어요. But at last, he made up his mind, career important than anything. Well, maybe that was only his ACTING in front of camera, or that was only a script from this program. If one day you have this LUCK to date with a celebrity for 7 days, can you let it go so easy?

Learning

很久一段时间我没有写过中文的post了，每次的每次，我都想了很多要说的话，可是到最后我都没有写下。今天放工后，看完Music Bank，我立刻收拾桌子，好让我有个像样的地方打字。现在，我终于可以安安静静地打打字，哈哈。

我的project这星期就要完工了，我要hand over给顾客了。由接job到争job，再由争到这个job然后开工到现在，应该就快3个月了。刚开始好像过得很慢，可是现在又觉得太快了，有一点点舍不得。这3个月来，真的要感谢帮助过我的每一位前辈们，他们真的毫不吝啬地教会我很多office里头看不到学不到的东西。人情事故也好，专业知识也好，真的学会了好多好多。因为这次的机会，我更想旷阔我的工作圈子，我想更进一步去学建筑的东西。首要原因是因为钱，始终建筑赚钱比较快，当然也比一般工作辛苦；二来，我发觉自己对画图蛮有兴趣的，虽说我的画工或设计还是皮毛，但是我在找着夜校或短期课程来充实自己，希望可以学以致用。

本来已为可以开始上韩文班， 谁知道原来是beginner的班级，空欢喜一场。我很久很久没有说韩文，只是但但看韩剧和韩国节目，还有听韩文歌曲来keep着不要让自己忘记单词。日文也是自修中，反正没有合适的班级，我自己慢慢学吧。

日子没有过得特别有意思，也不会很闷，像我之前提过的，我一直在‘学’东西，배우하고 있어요。

Blog Header

I found this at Baidu Hero Bar, he waved his hand at Beijing Airport to fans.

Video Scope

Channel [V] Video Scope’s showing TVXQ a.k.a. Tohoshinki all music video from 2000 till 2100. It’s amazing. From the earliest HUG, Rising Sun, O Jung Ban Hup, Purple Line, Loving You, till Beautiful You, Mirotic, どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？and Share The World.

Actually I was thinking to call some of my friends to watch it too; but after awhile, I gave up. Please don’t call me selfish cuz I didn’t call them, it’s because I don’t know they STILL like TVXQ or not. I had an experience last time to call up a friend to watch or share some news about TVXQ, she just not interested like before. Be honest, that time I felt I’m so stupid. After that incident, I told myself not be a busy body to KACAU others. To enjoy something, own self will do. Of course sharing is very important in our life, but I’m just scared the same happening will happen again.

Talking about TVXQ, I’ve already 20 months didn’t see them LIVE in front of me. Not like my friends, they went Bangkok, Korea, Taiwan or Japan enjoyed the concerts. I’m so jealous about them, but what to do? They all can afford it. I only can watch TVXQ thru internet downloaded video or pictures taken by the diehard fans. Anyway, still the same right? At least, I buy the original CD to support the record selling. Sigh…

Today I went a lot of places:
1) Lunch with mum at Maluri well known seafood noodles restaurant
2) Sent my mum to Jusco
3) Back Glenmarie checked the site cuz tomorrow have to lay carpet
4) Went down to Alam Damai ate Wan Tan mee and enjoyed my white coffee
5) Went Ampang Mitsubishi to get a test drive on Pajero Sport but temporary no test drive cuz all sold out. But luckily there’s a new car left there and the owner only will collect it by Tuesday, I had a touched on it! And, a coincidence the car number is 1189.
6) Went Angie’s house discussed with her regarding the car loan thing and read newspapers, and gave Jia Wen spelling test.
7) Went Kinokuniya collect book I ordered but the condition not good enough I rejected it, and asked them change a new one for me. But, I still grabbed a Japanese dictionary back home
8) Arrived home, and went bought my dinner at my downstairs restaurant
9) Finally, I stepped in my house

The whole day, (again) I was thinking to call a friend out, but I didn’t cuz I don’t know will I disturb their routine happy hours or not. That’s why, (again) enjoyed my time alone.

tvxq new CF

They all so cute!!!!!

Look Alike Sakura Street @ Glenmarie, Shah Alam

Along Glenmarie's factory area, got a lot of trees now blooming, like i'm staying at Japan, enjoying site seeing the beautiful Sakura... Picnic maybe...

이젠 I feel a little confused...

Lately I'm so into this little 'toy' (or... playing?) I don't know how to call it, but I love it so, especially when i feel stress or wanted a deep think, i will play it. Looking the liquid inside dropping, such a good release tension way for me.

Time

My layouts, calculation, email, etc… till now, 0112 morning, 2nd July 2009, STILL NOT YET FINISH. But, my mum asked me sleep first, cuz,

“Long life works, Long life do”.

Maybe she’s right, that’s why I hope can spare out some times to type something.

Time really pass by so damn fast, till I don’t know how to use it in proper, or more efficiency.

Uncomfortable

30th June 2009, 19:13pm

Stayed overnight at my BOSS’s house last night, it’s big, got air con, got maid, got big bed, soft pillow & boaster, got internet, etc; BUT, I can’t fall asleep easily.

And now, Monday, after work, I go back my own house, still without water supply, but I’m happy. My house small, no air con, no maid, no big bed, no internet, etc; BUT, I can sleep anytime anywhere inside my house.

Chinese always say,

“Dragon bed can’t compare with dog hole”.

Like my mum says, home sweet home. I think so. But due to my apartment car park problem, I can’t stay here if I late back. That’s why, I can’t enjoy my ‘Home Sweet Home’ idea. Sigh…

Shift

Mum wanna shift to another place, cuz since last 2 days our apartment no water supply, even the lift got problem. Actually before this, i think to shift too, cuz parking problem. Mum informed our house owner just now, if the water supply problem cannot be settled, we'll move on the coming 15th July. But i'm afraid that time i'm damn busy for this project ending works.

To find a new place to shift, not as easy as you think. I dunno where can i get a suitable place to stay.

1) Convenient to take public transport for my mum to go work

2) Got parking and safe

3) Maintenance ok

4) House rent not over 700 bucks

5) Good enough for my mum putting inside all her belongings

I'm dizzy while typing this, maybe i not yet recover from sickness. And, I'm at my site now. The clouds above my head, FULL; the sky so wide.

[HQ / FULL PV] Tohoshinki Stand By U ( DBSK ver)

Finally THSK version pv out, personally love this song so much, cuz of the music, rhythm and lyric.

So dizzy....

I can't help myself but very dizzy, till i feel wanted to faint.

fOOD pOISONING

Thursday morning at 3, i was diarrhoea, and stomachache badly, till morning 8. Thought that will i admitted to hospital cuz dunno what had happened, after visited company panel doc, he said,

"Food Poisoning." with a very cool face. That time me and Ms Ling speechless.

"Take MC and today only can eat porridge." again, his cool face.

I went home with medicine, staying home alone, but quite enjoy cuz this is my first 'HOLIDAY' for whole day. I slept 3 hours after took the medicine.

Now at office,feel no focus point from my eyes...

"Good Horse won't eat back side grass"

Chinese got a proverb,

"Good horse won't eat back side grass".

This I'm totally agreed. I'm regreted deadly back here working, all my friend, i'm wrong, please forgive me.

When your boss said you create OFFICE POLITIC; question i wanna ask:
1) when i got time sit inside office? I remember everyday i drive outside doing my layout alone, do my quotation alone, when i got time?
2) to create office politic need a GANG / GROUP ppl anti other ppl, but now only me, myself and i fighting for my pride. Stop talking to others also assumed as CREATE OFFICE POLITIC meh?

Some more, to help the weak? That means i'm the strong? Why other sales ppl's delivery job have to done by me? Why i have to teach their customers? Will i get any commission? NO! definately NO! Why my sales get under cut by other and my boss still side her and told me "nevermind lah" ? Then what for i pick up the phone for sales and my commission?

As a purchase ppl, working here over 4 yrs, to get a price also need to wait 10 yrs? After that if delay the sales or customers go to other competitors it will be my fault, how unfair!

As a clerk, already works here over half year, typing is the basic thing to do EVERYDAY; why still everytime also got excuse to type the wrong address, phone number, or attn person name?

I don't understand, i won't understand, and i don't want to understand their problem. After this project, i think i need to find another job.

边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！

记得‘溏心风暴’里，李思琪说的话吗？

“边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！”

简直一时成为佳话。现在发生在我的身上，我觉得，我有权说了。

Frustrated

Everybody got their principle, especially in working. Today I’m so frustrated and very disappointed, again. (I supposed to sing again and again by 2 pm) Why? I don’t understand why my sales got passed to other sales gal? I don’t know why. And, even the so called BOSS 做人做事also no principle. (Nat, the Chinese = zou yan zou si) After I heard it, totally speechless; but I showed them my ‘silent rebel’. I immediate settled my paper works and straight drive to Shah Alam, cuz I no eyes see. Plus, I scare myself will shout out again.

For so many times they said I’m selfish, from now on, I will be. There’s no reason to care others, cuz they will betray you anytime. All I have to do, is self protect. After this project, when I start sit comfortably inside office, I’m sure will cut them off.

Just now, I went Jusco bought a frappuccino tried to chill myself, but failed. Still, i'm damn angry!!

At site -- Glenmarie, Shah Alam

Yesterday back from Ipoh, and now i have to work hard at site cuz got changes according my customer and Mr. Tan said.

Yet, now raining and my shifting works can't do smoothly T___T

All the UNCLEs (power point, ceiling board, gypsum board, painting, structure... Ah HEAD), pls make the works as goos as you can.

SAND

For someone familiar with this name, SAND, you know what i'm talked about. I went youtube watched the videos again and again, tell you what, i still can't believe my singing video got posted in public. People comes watch it, comment it, i feel nice. It's like a new try to me, in my life time. As my age and my attitude, this really a BIG step forward. i really thanks my fellow 'group members', Dawn, Alyn & Nat. Without you 3, there won't be SAND. After some HAPPENING, i think, it's time to find you all gather again. At least, i know you all not that kind 'GAY SAU'. (Nat, u know what i say right?)

Take care my friends.

How to overcome …

My project already at 2nd week, I drive to Glenmarie every day, I meet my client every day, I meeting with the other supplies every day, dealing with the workers every day, have my lunch or so called HIGH TEA every day, driving back from site but jam at federal every day. What I left? I’m not sure, but at least these are the most I remember. And, one more, I have to fight with my company’s purchase department gal and the other accounts gal. Fed up to talk to them almost a month.

I found myself very stress. One day after work, I was on the way driving back to home, stopped at the traffic waiting it green. Just a second, yes, just a glance of time, I feel tired, suddenly wanted a shoulder to lean on. I tell you, at that moment I was very depressed and urge to find someone to lean on. But after I reached home, I found no one. Of course I got no one; I don’t even have a boy friend yet.

Lately meet back few primary school classmates, all of them married, have children. Sometimes I kinda jealous them cuz they got their own family; but sometimes I feel I’m lucky not yet step inside the MARRY TOMB. Actually I still got a lot of things not yet achieve, not yet experience. But, in the other hand, about love, I already experienced too much, happiness but sadness part the most. The one who hurt me most already married too. What about me? Still alone.

LA Lakers

For such a long time I didn’t watch basketball, 5 months I think. Just now when I turned to ASTRO channel 812, its NBA finals live, LA Lakers vs. Orlando Magic, game 1. So amazing I caught the right timing and watching it till now. The game almost controlled by Kobe Bryant, LA Lakers till 3rd quarter, 20 points different. He’s my idol! From secondary till 2008 Beijing Olympic, I watched all the matches USA played, he’s amazing!

Since I was primary school, I loved to watch NBA thru free TV. Then when I was in secondary school, I’m more interested in it and that’s why I supported ASTRO till now. Basketball, I love to watch, I used to play. But I didn’t really paid full attention to practice and patient continues the damn tough training. Some of my male friends play very well in secondary school; they went competitions and won certain level of prizes.

Sometimes I think, if I keep on staying at female basketball team and stand the tough training the coach gives, will I be good basketball player too? At least I think in secondary school period, my life will change and full with glorious, maybe. Who knows?

Touching

Today after work, I went home on time. Switched on my laptop and thought to burn my videos in DVD. When I tried to ‘filter’ those unused / not interesting videos, I found one made my cried.

In Korea, there’s a program name STAR KING, which is a talent show for ANYTHING. Yup, anything, e.g.: singing, special kungfu, cooking, etc. This time, they had a 3rd time winner came this program. All of them are handicap kids, they can’t see, their face look alike retarded, but they all can sing, especially the 2 boys. First song they sang was “Happy Day” from the OST of Sister Act II. I love this song when I first watched this movie; I even bought the DVD and watch it all the time. I never know there still got other people will like it too. When they started sang, my tears dropped nonstop. I really can’t stand cuz I think all of them so talented and brave.

The 2nd song was sang by the 2 boys with a blind man plays harmonica who very well known in Korea. The blind man the choir teacher; he’s the one who encourage the entire handicap small kids join their choir. And, the 2nd song was “I Believe I Can Fly”. Again, my tears dropped like flood. Not only their singing very best, but, I had a thought at that time. Back to 4 yrs ago, my ex-bf loved this song so much; but I was not. Although I like this song, but I hate it after my ex-bf sang thousand times in front of me, made me feel irritated. But compared with the boys, I suddenly felt this song and lyric super touching! This song is like talking about them. How brave they are. Look at those normal people, still wasting their precious time doing nothing. How shame they are.

Look at them, I feel shame of myself. Even though they can’t see, but they still try hard on learning how to sing and perform with full confident in front of stranger. Of cuz, one of the reasons is, they can’t see anything. Anyway, I really learnt a lot from them, and I tell myself, I must have their spirit and live on bravely and confidently.

Busy

One of my friend complained I didn’t update blog lately, till she can’t update my life story. Haha, I didn’t know she got time stop by and read my blog cuz I thought she’s so busy on working at US. Well, me too. June, my project started and I have to go Glenmarie, Shah Alam very frequent. Em, almost one week time I have to go there 4 days, and all time stand by to amend the layout and prepare the quotation for additional items. So sorry I can’t even pick up your phone to chat long time as before we did.

It’s a good start but still a tough work. I’m not only taking care of this project, but other customers too. Driving fast while thinking how to cut other cars and talking on phone in the same time, it’s already normal to me. Haha, I wonder when the police will catch me. Touch wood!!! Touch wood!!

I’m planning to take 3 days leave back to Ipoh, cuz I want a rest. And, I wanna eat Ipoh nice food. Ya, still PLANNING, so don’t know when will ACTUAL happen. My mum persuading me go Malacca cuz she wants goes A’Famosa. Yup, I will plan on this coming month end or next beginning of month.

肥田喜事

最近电视播着这电视剧，我是第一次这么认真追看这部戏，实在有够写实。我向同事借了dvd一口气把它看完了。

故事除了讲述肥人的辛酸，还有说明肥人也有权利穿漂亮的衣服，也可以装扮得很可爱。但同时，也教会了我两件事：做人做事都要有自信， 还有，爱一个人不是迁就听话就行了，而是真真切切为他设想。

可能自己已经是肥田了，所以才更身同感受，肥了之后的我，更能深切感受要买一件自己喜欢也合身的衣服，真的一点都不容易。好笑的是，我从来都没有想过要减肥，或许是没有耐心和懒惰吧。也没差，就像这戏一直强调，心灵相同，如果是你的，就是你的。

Singing

Lately I watched American Idol, ASTRO Singing Contest & SPRITE (CHINA) Singing Competition. It’s amazing. Especially American Idol, Adam & Kris. Last month in Malaysia, One in The Million, Tomok won, of cuz Esther not bad too.

Take part in any kind of music talent or singing competition, what’s the most important thing we needed bring along always? It’s confident. I admit I don’t have it. That’s why I never try on any singing competition, except the SM Audition, for twice J

I’m going 29, but I’m still wondering, what I want for future, I still have a dream on being a singer. It’s kinda ridiculous, and I knew it won’t happen till I step out. Every time I watch the singing competition in TV, be honest to say, some of the contestants really cannot be accepted. I don’t know how the judge let them pass the audition. Not that I’m a critic person, but sometimes really no idea WHY. Well, myself not a singer, but my ears still can differentiate what is good what is bad.

Among so many singers, so many genres, so many styles, so many generations, etc, do yo have any idea which and what or even whose voice the most be deeply impressed you? Some of the singers’ voice you’ll find they no need music as a background, cuz their voice already a music, they born to sing live, to me, they are Jacky Cheng, Whitney Houston, Kim Jun Soo, Utada Hikaru, etc. Some of the singers’ voices have a healing feel, but without musical instruments as the set off or background, I found it just a normal song they’re singing, it’s difficult to touch my heart. Most of the Asian singers also can include in this group. The other kind I found is more to rhythm or dancing or performance singers, they maybe not so talented in singing but once add on some dancing and lightning effect, it’s perfect to watch, and most of them got a lot of fans or followers, selling always number one, like Jay Chou, Jolin Tsai, Britney Spears, Ayumi Hamasaki, and those idol groups.

Of cuz there still got a lot different kind of groups I found, but 3 of the most in the music industrial will be enough to discuss here. The above singers that I grouped is only my personal opinion, no need take it serious in your heart. To support your idol is your right, no need feel hurt when others criticize them.

Fight for Pride

This is the first and ever in my life time I had a big fight in front of all my colleagues with my lady boss, I even cried while shouting at her. Nobody dare to come near or speak anything. Till this second, I still don’t think I was wrong.

I really fed up and feel grievance till I swear to my father Lucifer, I won’t treat her as my relative, she’s only my lady boss. What I concern, only MONEY. And, I hate the purchasing and account girls; don’t ask me talk to them ANYMORE. Say I’m selfish? Then I’ll show you all what is the real SELFISH mean.

Recently I got lots of site visit, site conduct, product demo, etc. Luckily, most of the customers also purchase my product or service. And, I think my GOOD luck came was since the day I cut my hair. Superstitious? Maybe, but why not? At least, I see the result.

One of my friend at Mongolia, he’s quite enjoy the living environment there, relax. Although he’s working but still, like didn’t work at all, cuz nobody push him or keep watch on him. He said he rather stays there than at Malaysia. I’m kinda jealous him, but in the other hand, I feel pity on him. Jealous, is because he take high pay, always travel around for projects; pity, is because there’s only few friends he can calls out during at Malaysia, that’s why he rather stay oversea alone all the time.

But I found myself also the same type like him, no friend surround, rather alone. That’s why I like to talk with him, cuz we’re similar. Danny, I’m waiting you back end of this month and a candle light dinner ^^

HELP!!!!

OMG!!!! My external HDD dead liao ah!!!!! All my KATTUN video inside!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't sleep whole night till i got dark circle surrounding my eyes T______T

Ahhhh...............................!!!!!

The sadness inside my heart can't use the words to describe...

Exhausting….

Not only because of the weather, but my working, and my life. This whole week I have full of appointments outside, bunch of quotations waiting me, the unstoppable customers’ phone call, and the never ending revise layouts also have to be updated day by day.

I really tired, headache started sticks with me, and for 2 weeks I take pill to cure it. Lately I back home on time, but bring along the paper works, sales calculation and layout back home working while watching TV. I don’t have time to spare out for entertainment, e.g.: music and drama. The only time I have for music, is while I’m driving. About the drama, movie or program that I had downloaded from internet, all keep inside my hard disc till it started full then I will start filter out those not important video.

Sigh… I wanna have a short break.

New Look

Saturday & Sunday I went out and changed my look totally, I cut my hair like a coconut look, and bought those clothes I never wear before to look more like a girl, even bought a pair of yellow heel shoes, yup, SHINING YELLOW.

Without notice, all came in a sudden and I just let it went naturally.

P.S. After bought the clothes and cut my hair, i can't get my broadband this month, poor me T___T

Hot Hot Hot!!!!

I don’t know what’s going wrong to the earth, or maybe God wanna punish human for polluted the earth. But, lately, I mean from February till now, it’s extremely hot Hot HOt HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m driving up to down whole day, I already can’t take this anymore, and body gave the signal, cuz I’m headache badly and fever badly this 2 weeks. I’m not gonna go out under this hot hot sun, and I will discuss with my boss to reduce the afternoon appointment, NO MATTER HOW!

ASTRO

Due to Mother’s Day, I decided bought ASTRO as a gift to my mum, of cuz for myself, too. For monthly, I have to spend RM100 for the SATRO bill, but I think I can afford it. Now, I’m thinking to sign up for internet broadband service. Lately checking & comparing all the broadband service providers’ pros and cons. Actually I look for P1, but my area is not inside their coverage area, how sad about it. But I not yet give up P1, I will go their centre and ask properly about their service, terms and condition and etc.

Today ASTRO installed, when I back from work, I straight switched it on, till now :p Now mum also back home, and see her face I knew she’s happy, haha….. I felt myself alive after watched it, I pressed all the channels to confirm what package I’ve purchased. And I found that I really lack back, got a lot of programs I don’t know at all. When I turned to channel [V] or MTV, I found a lot of new music. Sigh…… Well, the coming day I will spend more times on ASTRO with my mum, at least we have more times to sit back and talk about the drama.

Regarding the broadband, I will update later day. Wish me luck.

Thanks

Sam back from Bangkok last few days, she bought me TVXQ single, and this is the second time she bought CD single to me as a present. I remember last time she brought back with a poster too. Thanks, Samsam Chew.

Rebecca gave me a big offer and sell off TVXQ 2009 hanging calendar to me in good condition. I don’t have enough money for now, but she allow me take it back first, once got $ then back in to her. Again, thanks Rebecca.

For such a long time I didn’t buy any luxuries things for myself, but now I had 2. Haha.
I’ve already started working for 2 months, now my situation better than before. At least I got money to buy food I love, e.g.: Mc Donald’s, KFC, Pizza Hut & etc. Compared to rice or noodle, or some expensive food, I preferred fast food. I’m still like a small kids :p eating French fries or hush brown with my hot coffee, how nice.

Looking at the calendar while listening Bolero, sigh… what a nice day…

Trust & Scepticism

My friend said she had a control freak aunt 24 hours ready scold her for any single tiny reason, and I believed her, cuz I got one and she’s not only a control freak but a typical scepticism freak. She even put a SPY near me, sigh. She’s not only my aunt but my boss too, how disappointed. My friend staying at US always calls and complains about her aunt, and she said she’s getting crazy and have a thought to suicide, not only once but quite frequent. I understood her feeling, I had this experience but I’m not thinking to kill myself, but kill my aunt. Of course I did not; it’s not a right way to settle this problem. Suicide only will bring hurts to us and very pain; kill others, only will make ourselves become a sinner. That’s why I told my friend, don’t think about suicide but try to change our thought and way of living.

“It’s the hardest thing to change others’ thought, and it’s easiest to change ours’”, I came across this from a radio station DJ’s night talk show. It’s true, why we have to waste our precious time to change their thoughts when opposite party’s stupid head already locked or not moving at all. Maybe now my friend not understands what the real meaning I wanna tell her, but I believe, later she will. Like my situation, my boss keeps on saying I’m playful, wasting time, not concentrate on my job, cuz from her eyes view and her earlier prejudiced, no matter what I do, she must accuse me done wrong. At the past 3 years, I’m living in the hate and everyday think to kill her too, what a childish thought I had. But after I back from my 2 months holiday, I changed my mind. Whatever she suspected on me, I treat her like transparent. I know what I’m doing, and I no need explain too much cuz she won’t believe. Playing computer or didn’t submit report = playful? = not serious? = wasting time? Please, do you know what the generation now is? This is not the whole you see, and I’m adult, I know what I’m doing now. To blame or complain or accuse or assume I am bad enough, I don’t think she got the right to judge other people. Who the hell she thinks she is? Forget about it. Against her or shout at her already no use, I rather use a cunning smile or laugh face her. Enjoy my happy life while working and I have to balance my life in between work and play ^^

Whenever my friend asks me “How?”, I will say the same to her, “If can’t stand it, then come back. No matter how many commitment you have, must make the decision by follow our heart.” It seems BULL SHIT, but this is true, don’t suffer ourselves, unless you enjoy the abuse from other.

1582

This number is a song name, Kame’s solo in their new album, I love it so much. But inside the song I didn’t see any number appear, so I don’t know what’s the real meaning or any relation in between it. Ask me why I like him? Charisma. Another guy I think he deserved what he’d received. I knew him by watched his drama at 2006, but that time I didn’t like KATTUN. After 3 years, I found Kame’s special in certain of way which maybe you all didn't notice, or can say, you won't notice.

Human is like that, first time meet someone, you won’t take a lot of attention on him, unless he’s the cup of tea for you. After sometimes, we’ll see this people grown up and started notice everything about him. When the time you started concern whatever happen on him that means he captured your eyes, and have a space inside your heart. Not really fall for him, but just we get interested only. So don’t worry about that, haha.

Back to Kame, or KATTUN, I really hope I have a chance fly to Japan watch their concert in this coming summer. Cuz I believe this concert, their will put a lot of visual shock to the fans. And the new album they just released really has a high rating inside my heart. And, I wanna know how Kame going to have the solo performance for 1582. Sigh… I wanna go… when will be my turn...?

BREAK THE RECORD - BY YOU & FOR YOU

I've been waiting so long for their album, finally I got it.

KAT-TUN - Break the Records -by you & for you-

Release Date: April 29 2009

Genre: Pop Rock, Ballad

Similar: Johnny's Entertainment

Rating: 9.5/10

01 DON'T U EVER STOP

02 SADISTIC LOVE

03 RESCUE

04 WATER DANCE

05 ONE DROP

06 WHITE WORLD / 中丸雄一

07 care / 赤西仁

08 1582 / 亀梨和也

09 PIERROT / 田中聖

10 花の舞う街 / 上田竜也

11 WIND / 田口淳之介

12 君道

13 春夏秋冬

14 White X'mas (Album Version)

15 NEIRO

16 MOON (Bonus Track)

I'm not bias to KATTUN but really like their style, their song, their appearance, etc. Well, there's nothing we can compare in between TVXQ & KATTUN, cuz they are different genre of musician. So, let's enjoy it if you wanna have a try on different thing. Below is the link:

http://www.rayfile.com/zh-cn/files/cd39247a-3243-11de-93f5-0014221b798a/

Reality & Coincident… Or just Luck?

I’m arrived at KL, and have to write something at least.

Grandpa’s funeral brought all his daughters & sons back and gathered together. Of course, my cousins came back, too. From his funeral, I got the chance listened a lot of BEHIND STORIES. Funeral, the main ACTOR not only the death people, but MONEY too. Who has money, who pays for the funeral or casket, he / she will be the one who in charge. If you have any objection or opinion, you must at least half of it, if not, you have no right to SPEAK anything there. My mum and I is the poorest inside, we don’t even able pay a cent for it, that’s why we have no right to speak anything. But so funny, most of the time they will pay a little bit RESPECT to my mum cuz she’s the first daughter in the family, they will try to ask her opinion. My mum already knew their PATTERN, this kind of disguise, of cuz she can recognize, so she just said, “You all make decision lah, no need ask me.”

At there, I like watching drama every single second. Oh ya, forgot to tell you all, I have 5 uncles but 1 didn’t come back, then 3 aunties, and plus my mum, they’re 9 brothers sisters. Then I got… em… let me count…… 7 cousins, but only 4 arrived. The adults, all are best actors and actresses, cuz the whole funeral I only see the fake face. This minute they cry, the next minute they laugh. Sigh… Even myself also like an entertainer, whenever talked to them, I must use different MASK or characters. 2 heads snake? No no no. I am a mischievous monkey. To stop them suspected me support anyone one of them, I tried to be nice to everyone. They’re my relatives, but my mum NEVER thinks so, cuz she hates them. The reason no need brings here but she is.

Forget about the cunning faces or crafty act, let’s talk something about my grandpa. Since I was standard one, he fetched me to primary school. Every morning he also brought me to the morning market place took breakfast. And, after the breakfast, he sure will give me a 50 cents coin for a little reward. That’s why every time my relatives talk about 50 cents, sure will remember my grandpa was treated me so nice, and teasing me or maybe I think they all jealous. I supposed to give him the final 50 cents as a last present before he left to heaven. But the so called SI FU doesn’t allow me to do it. Till now I also think this is my lifelong regret. I didn’t cry from the second I received this bad news last Friday early morning, till he left. But my heart is not that comfortable. The rest cried a lot, but I feel so FAKE. Last, I wanna say something to my grandpa,

“The 50 cents, I will bring to you next time.”

The coincident I put at title, is because my mum won the lottery, I mean MA BIU. She said it is because she had prayed the whole night for grandpa, and she gave away one old coin to put inside his mouth (some traditional way), that’s why grandpa rewarded her. It’s first prize you know? When my mum saw the result, she shouted out so loud and asked me read again to confirm it’s correct. Immediately she cried and said thanks to grandpa cuz helping her so much. Especially now we decided to move in urge, mum is so happy. Maybe she’s right, since our situation is not that good, now she got this money she can do a lot of thing she wanted so long. At least, I won’t get scold easily everyday. With this little money, she’ll happy for very long time. This is a poor family reality happening.

Mum, congratulation, you deserved.

Funeral

Dramatically my grandpa past away this early morning, that's why i'm now at Ipoh. Well, I used the word DRAMATICALLY, is because something had happened and i can't explain now. So, now is the time to ENJOY my grandpa's funeral and started my HOT HOT spa here.

Whoever read this, don't worry and no need feel sorry about it, cuz i'm ok with it. So, the latest update i will post tonight after the LONG schedule we'll have.

3 Cups of Nescafe

Within 24 hours I drank 3 cups of Nescafe, and the last 2 cups drank during 22:00 – 23:30, Sam said I no need sleep tonight. We’re at mamak stall chatting. She’ll go Thailand this Friday, told her I’m worried cuz Thailand now really dangerous. But she said this holiday she’s been waiting damn long, no matter how she MUST go.

Well, back to reason why I no need sleep tonight, cuz I have to work out the quotation for tomorrow’s finalizing meeting. I hope I can get the job cuz Monday I just lost RM10K for the Keyphone and network wiring job, kinda upset with that. To release my anger, I ate a lot the whole day. Finally I feel better. Today I still call them for other opportunity on furniture part; at least I wanna get something from them no matter how. But so bad I can’t meet up with them cuz my appointment full, especially tomorrow is my due for the finalizing meeting. To struggling from this dilemma, I asked Ling helped me to attend the customer first, and I will try to follow up back after tomorrow meeting.

Lately I work very hard, nothing but money. I got a lot of things to buy, not only for my own self, but my mum too, cuz next month is mother’s day, gotta do something. I already spotted a present to her, hope she’ll like it. I don’t have enough money to bring her travel, but let’s postpone for this year end or next year Chinese New Year. About myself, I wanna buy some pc hardware to upgrade my computer; or maybe trying to get a laptop as soon as possible. And, I wanna buy few calendars to reward myself. I’m not so interested in the pretty clothes or accessories. Books, music, or food maybe will easy get my attention.

Home Alone

Mum’s back to Ipoh again for Monday Jusco Day, and again I’m HOME ALONE. When this morning she left, I saw her Korean boss again, merely wanted to use my broken Korean to greet him, but when he saw us, he said in English. Maybe he already gets used with Malaysian culture cuz he’s been here for almost 7-8 yrs. I still can remember when the first time we met, he even speaks the Malaysian English, “Lah”, “Meh”. It’s funny when I heard that.

After That I went KLCC, Kinokuniya with my aunt NSL. Both of us wanted to buy book, language study. She wanted to buy the Spanish Dictionary and some of the practices; I wanted to buy the Japanese Grammar book. She used to learnt Japanese before and end at the 2nd level, cuz her classmates don’t want to further level. Just like me, I thought I can finish my intermediate level, but still can’t. Due to others’ person reason, we stopped.

But never mind, that’s why I start back my Japanese language study at the same school my aunt at. Before I realized the existing of Korean language, I had studied myself of Japanese since I was in high school. That time I was so into the Japanese animation, I learnt to draw anime with a gang of friends, I bought a lot of Japanese anime magazines (I ordered monthly), and I bought the Japanese language self study text book, exercise books & dictionary, too. I dreamt to be a comic artist and found a lot of places to ask them whether got school for anime, but failed. I even tried online applied at Japan to study anime, but the fees so damn expensive, and I gave up. It’s a very nice time I had when I crazy finding the Anime School, drew the comic and exchanged the drawing opinions with my friends. I studied hell hard to understand Japanese no matter in reading or listening, of cuz at last I only can spoke and recognized some Japanese, haha. Today when I stepped inside Kinokuniya, the feel a little bit different. Liked I go back to the past. Reason why I start back? Fall for KATTUN, the first reason.

Talked with NSL, I asked her why learn so many languages. Cuz she’s not pro in it. She said,

“Although we’re not pro enough, and this is not important for me cuz I’m not gonna be a translator, but I wanna know their culture thru language. The more you know, the more you know about them. This is for our personal knowledge also. If really deal in business, we can hire a professional translator.”

Before listen her words, I always think, “Shall I learn other languages also?” cuz I’m so worried I can’t understand well enough like a professional. But after listened to her, I changed my mind. Cuz, I totally forgot the main reason why I wanna learn Korean. Of cuz I wanna chase TVXQ, but the main reason is, I wanna know what are they talking about every time in the interview, without the help of the subtitle. Finally I did it. Although not as good as others, but I did it. I won’t quit Korean cuz I will do self study. In the same time I will attend Japanese language class too, to enrich my knowledge about the culture and can faster get understand what KATTUN say every time I watch their program ^^.

Almost 1a.m., I have to sleep now.

P.S. One thing I feel sad when I at Kinokuniya, I didn’t see my KATTUN calendar there!!! Where’s it!!!!!

Last Class

It’s the end. Finally. I don’t know other’s thinking, but I do feel normal. Yes, as normal as I am. What to do? We still needed to go on. And, we can meet Gloria always whenever we have time. Nothing’s too bad on it.

Some said I’m cruel, cold blooded. I admitted since few years back. Why should I act or be a nice person to please you all? Being a so called FRIENDLY or GENEROUS people, from my point of view, they’re faked. So what? I can’t express what I think here? Hey! It’s my blog! You hate it then don’t read it, don’t even click my blog add, I won’t eat you.

Because of the last class and I was late back, I lost my car park and have to wake up at early morning ANYTIME to move my car away from blocking other’s car. How bad. Not to blame, but I did felt not happy on that. Sigh.

Tomorrow still have another gathering at Gloria’s house, main purpose I think is EAT. Gathering is not that important to me, cuz I can’t join their topic ANYMORE. Forget about it. Thinking whether I go or not, but mostly won’t appear. The gap is too big now.

Ms Gloria, i will find you another day.

KAT-TUN White X'mas

If there's a sad x mas in my life time, i will listen to this song... really love this so much.

Special dedicate to Maggie.

SECRET CODE

Finally their new Japanese album out, and everybody go grab it fast, it's a very nice album. And, it got 3 versions.

Stop

When I say STOP for something, that means, I really wanna STOP.

Ugly Betty

I just finished one of the episodes of “UGLY BETTY”, this is the first time I have the chance sit down quietly for an hour to watch till finish. Betty’s friend, Amanda, is a blonde pretty sexy babe, she falls in love easy, one night stand is normal to her; Betty’s boss Willie is a capable but lonely woman, she always pay extra much attention on her competitors. And Betty, as you all knew, she’s not pretty at all, but she always has the warmest heart to do everything. The guy she falls on to, Jesse, is an artist, singer, but lack of luck to show his talent. At first Betty thought Jesse also has the same feeling on her, she helps him organized a party for him to perform. Jesse sings solo and said wanna dedicates to his SPECIAL one, and Betty, even her family members also thought the girl he mentioned was Betty. When Betty decided to tell Jesse she falls for him, she saw Amanda kissing with him, what a damn shock and attack to her. She’s sad, and standing at the road side crying alone. Her another boss Daniel came down too, asking why she’s crying. She told him that she realize she’s not beautiful at all, she must be more understand when Jesse said her BEAUTIFUL, he’s not from his heart. But Daniel comforts her and said,

“You’re beautiful.”

When she went back to her house and cleaning the stuff after party, Amanda was there waiting her back, and apologized. She told Betty her feeling on Jesse, at first Amanda thought Jesse was charming, every woman dream to be with him fall for him, thought he’s special, but after the kiss, she told Betty,

“He’s not worth to.”

After Betty heard that, she smiles. Till here I got a question, is it Amanda actually wanted to help Betty to test the guy? I’m not sure, but the meaning was there. Amanda continues saying,

“I’m envy you Betty. Whoever falls for you, they’re really loves you. Not like me, I don’t even know what’s the real is, cuz I’m too beautiful.”

Actually her dialogue much longer and better, but the real meaning I wanted to bring out is, Amanda herself also knew the reality happen to her, and Betty. Those guys sleeping with her, is ONLY wanted sleep with her, nothing but that, cuz she’s a pretty babe. No one put the heart on her, at least for her past she never had a real love I guess, if not, she won’t say that to Betty. Of course Betty understands Amanda’s words, she thanks to her, too.

Well, be honest, I don’t trust it. Who will date with ugly I wondered. I’m a good example. Whenever I feel depressed and ask my colleagues why I’m still alone, they all so nice and said times will tell; and I will tell them,

“If you’re a guy, will you date with a guy look / feel girl? It just like dating with a guy, it’s weird, awkward.”

Ya, I think so. Others ask me to change the outlook, for certain reason I don’t want to change, is because I don’t wanna force myself doing something I feel uncomfortable with. Maybe I not yet meet someone worth to make me change myself till I don’t realize at all, it’s naturally change from inner.

I’m going to find UGLY BETTY from year one till now. Whoever has this, please lend to me, so that I can save my money to buy it.

TAXI - TVXQ

I got this song last week, when i see this title, i thought was a fast song as usual. But actually not. It's a very sentimental love song, without knowing the lyric, i feel SAD only T___T and a story immediate came out from my mind, a very short story, haha.

Taxi, is a public transport. Have you guys or girls crying inside a taxi? I did, but i forgot the reason why. And, i even cried inside the bus, train. Seem i like to cried inside the public transport, more convenient.

Order

I wanna order a book from Korea, but find no where to help. Some said thru online, but it's difficult to find a online book store to do oversea deliver. Plus, it's really expensive for the delivery charges, my book only RM25, but the delivery RM45, OMG~ @_@! How crazy of that? It's really rediculous.

Another thing, I found it's really funny while Oscar order clothes or books from US; but i order books from Korea. Well, supposed he can buy clothes or book at Malaysia, but he doesn't want; supposed to read in our own dialect, but how come i tend to study other country language? Haha...

Hopefully i can get a way to order my book, not only this, for future purpose too.