Saturday, November 29, 2008
One In A Million
Personally, I also not interested in it, not really have the courage PUSH me go. I don't even prepare any songs during the pass few days. And, you know what happen now? I'm coughing and sore throat, shit!!! I hate this cuz will effect my voice, although i'm not gonna take part but still not nice to listen >_<
Early morning at office first thing i do is, order a lemon water from next door, yes, is lemon + water. Hopefully can get well soon...
Thursday, November 27, 2008
YUNHO = YUCHUN - 2U CF #2
Again, i see Yun Ho keeps on singing and the other only playing fool, hahaha... funny...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
At KL
First thought came to me when i passed KL toll, "I AM BACK TO THE JAIL AGAIN".
Back to Normal
Staying at Ipoh these 3 days 2 nights, i feel relax. At least I never got this feeling at KL before. Alex & Oscar told me the same thing, KL is too tension. So many ppl say Ipoh is the place which for RETIRE use. I agree too, but also can find a stable job although salary low, living happily ever after. Staying at KL just like everyday having a fight or war with those you don't know, or, maybe fighting with the invisible scare or pressure. For the pass 3 years I stay in KL, I ONLY learned how to live, or I should say how to survive.
But the best thing is, I learn Korean, I meet nice friend. Blessed. I dunno how long i can stand for this time, but i won't let ppl OVER my line. This is my BORDER LINE.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Ipoh, Love
"Grandpa cannot liao... quick, we have to go home." she said it in hurry. Then i asked the whole story and i decided not go back so early. Reason why? My KL house FLOOD!!! Certain pipe stucked with certain place and all the dirty water from above neighbours all came into my house. And, the HOUSE OWNER also didn't care at all. I cleaned all the dirt then back ipoh at 3pm.
On the way back, i slept one hour then woke up, cuz the air con too cold and outside raining heavily. All along the road, i saw the trees and mountains passing by, feeling was weird and i was thinking another rediculous story ^^
I reached Ipoh at 1830pm, but really heavy rain, the thunder scared me. Took a cab staright to GH, and i saw my mum and relatives, then i saw my grandpa. This is not the 1st time I see my grandparent full with injection whole or with those medical equipments i totally dunno what does it call; but still, i'm worried.
Few years back, my father side grandma, she stroke at home and sent by an ambulance which me & my aunt & my maid also inside. It's my 1st experience to feel SCARE. You'll never know the next second what will happen to your beloved, and the emergency room environment makes you can't breath easily. After that, I spent about 3 months on & off, come & go in hospital Fatimah. I still remember I love the canteen nasi lemak. After 3 months, we took her back home and hired a maid took care of her. She watched Astro with me, and even listened what i talked to her always at every midnight. I knew she loves me so much, she taught me a lot. She suffered for 9 months finally she left me.
One years ago, my father side grandpa, sickness for long time, suddenly faint at my aunt's house, immediately we sent him to HUKM. The night before, he still wanted to give me his own money, cuz he told me have to eat well, and he secretly said,"your aunts won't treat you good, take my money and live well, k?" At that moment i knew nothing, but scolding him not to do so, cuz i'm good enough. But who can predict the next second, he became like that? For about one week, he left me too, in front of me, i looked at him and the heart beat machine, slowly till it became one straight line. Angie was there too, and me. I'm proud to say this, "I'M WITH HIM TILL LAST SECOND", cuz i'm his own grand-daughter.
Now, till my mother side grandpa, he took good care of me when i was small. He brought me to school, every morning we went morning market had our breakfast, and one thing, the most important thing, HE EVERYDAY GIVE ME 50 CENTS. Maybe he wanted me have an atittute for saving money, but finally i disappointed him. Even now.
I always tell ppl surrounding me, "I AM COLD BLOODED WOMAN", but i love my grandpa & grandma, and of cuz, my mum. Nobody can replace them. But some of my relatives, be honest, I have no feeling on them. Whoever helped me before, i won't forget; but whoever hurt me before, I will take back whatever is belonged to me. Kinda like revenge? Not really, but I do REMEMBER everything had happened to me in my life time.
Fashion Show ?
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Suki Low
My Name
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
DBSK We Love You - 1년 7개월동안 그들이 참아왔던 말
Alyn said this video will cheer me up, but after i watch it, i really cry badly. Sorry for my sensitive or emotional... BUt thanks Alyn.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
If I were a boy
I had this thought when I was young, yup, I said YOUNG, like below 26yrs old. Now I’m turned to 28, if my life only till 5+, I walked half, and it’s not kidding or pessimistic, but I really getting old day after day. When I walk on the road or shopping malls sometimes, looking at the young girls hanging with their gang or boyfriends, it’s really a strong alert ringing to me, “you’re not young ANYMORE”. If I were a boy, I got lots of things to do for myself.
I'd roll out of bed in the morning and throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys, and chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted and I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy, I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken so they think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first and make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful, waiting for me to come home
To come home
If I were a boy
I think I could understand, oh-oh-oohh-oh
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake, think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You got it wrong
But you're just a boy
And you don't understand (yea, you don't understand, oh!)
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Because you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
Monday, November 17, 2008
081115 mkmf fancam dbsk best album of the year + ending
Guys' tear, what to say? Let's add oil ba, i believe TVXQ fans will know what to do next to support their beloved.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
081115 MKMF- DBSK wins Best Album of the Year (Changmin Crying T_T) [HQ]
I would never knew this happened on Chang Min, cuz this was the first time he cried in front of this BIG SHOW... After watched it, i cried too...
Saturday, November 15, 2008
SAND gathering...
3 of them waiting the food come, while fooling around too. Inside the video no me, but my voice there ^^
Well, before that, we went Time Square ate pizza at Vivo,but not really nice, just so so. Luckily didn't bring Gloria along, later she'll complain.
Three of them SUPER LOVE Big Bang's songs, kept on singing inside my car, even some said listen song inside my car more got feeling, I think maybe the sound system different gua... Environment nice, then we can sing more in feel!!! Especially the acoustic version of HARU HARU...
It's a nice dinner with 3 of them. Some more, our 막내 really funny, actually she's not only got Chang Min feel, but Jun Soo too. Haha... so cute....
Friday, November 14, 2008
Cover
RE: SAND Come Back Stage
소원 때문에...
SAND going to sing this, such a BIG 도전 to me. Yea, it is. But in my mind, i just know i have to sing as good as i can, compare with Jun Soo, I'm still far from him, but near too.
Nat told me ONE IN THE MILLION audition date, but i forgot liao, she & Dawn will do have a try, asked me too. But i don't have the intention to take part on it, feel like, "I'm old leh, still wanna dream for it?" I dunno much about singing, really. From standard 1 my teacher asked me took part of the singing competition, till high school. But for real, I didn't learn so much about the singing skill, especially BREATHING. I hope i have the chance to learn or have a class for singing, especially for SINGING only. No dancing pls, i hate dance.
This time, SAND Come Back Stage, where we gonna start leh? KBS? MBC? SBS? or... TV3? hahaha... Maybe just in front of Gloria, haha...
Thursday, November 13, 2008
New dog...
Jia Yoong said the dog now named it Wuffy; but when i see Jia Wen now, she said no!!! I wonder how i call it......
This dog, just arrived at my office. My cousin sister arrived.... now we have to bring it to vet. Will update later.
Don't Say Goodbye
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
답답해...
I understand the student all very young like Seung Ri's age, their music also lively, powerful and more towards to western style, their appearance really capture youngster's eyes. 10대 fans a lot... TVXQ already became others 선배, plus they changed a lot, mostly fans already move to 20대 이상... Can't deny, this is the RULES, entertainment field never ending comes out new ppl, new group, new tactic to tackle audiences.
But who cares? Just another new face, if they really NO TALENT, immediate will ignore he or she. Game rules No. 1.
Monday, November 10, 2008
My Thunder Back!!!
My lady boss went out to fetch her little daughter, Jia Wen. I listening PHS's song, cuz, again, FINALLY, i downloaded his 3, 4, 5, and remake albums. One of the advantage without Thunder is, while you're trying to use other download softwares or the basic download, it'll fatser than before. No matter how, I need Thunder :p Lots of drama waiting me...
Office obviously lesser phone ringing compare 2 months ago. I'm worried but what can i do? Nothing but follow up closely like my lady boss always says to us.
To my mum...
I never have this strong feeling before, at least for the past few months, I DIDN’T HAVE. When I listen to this song which sings by Hyo Shin, I realized a lot at this late midnight. More I watch more I feel SOMETHING hide inside my heart. I wonder, ‘will everybody love their mum like this song wrote?’ Maybe yes, maybe no. How many of us will know how to THANKS our mum? What can we do to thanks them? When we’re still living inside their body, also the same time they taking the risk for their life, it’s very dangerous. We even shit inside their body; I know it’s disgusting to say it out, but this is truth. Myself, I always argue with mum, yup, I am. But I knew my mum loves me always, of cuz me too. But we won’t say it, love sometimes not really has to tell out, but action will do. I see some kind of the family always say I LOVE YOU to each other family members, but I didn’t feel the LOVE from them. I hate this fake action. What they know about love? I don’t know either, but I knew I have the responsibility to take of my mum, no matter what had happened.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
A Whole New World - Park Hyo Shin and Ann
This video I wanna dedicate to one of my fren, Nat. She loves this song so much, everytime go sing K, this song sure will get choose by her. And I found Hyo Shin really sings merely the same as the original singer. Please watch whenever you read my blog k?
RM25 vs USD25
She bought the book i told her last time, just started read one chapter, but I already finished. Tomorrow she'll go New York has a walk, asked me what i want for Xmas. I don't know, everything in States expensive. Once she said wanna buy Tiffany & Co., OMG! Don't!!! It's really expensive!! Our friendship not about MONEY, but quality... always remember...