Toucholic

Question

2011-06-20T19:32:00.000+09:00

I got lots of questions which no answer. I got lots of opinions but it's hardly to speak out. I got lots of complaints but i cant make it right. So many LOTS OF but we just cant do whatever we want. This is life.

Voice

2011-06-14T21:01:00.001+09:00

So long time never sing in front of public after SAND's performance 4 years ago. I wondered my voice still good enough to sing in light or not. Although am not a professional singer, but i love to sing. This remind me one thing, there's only once i sang in front the one i used to love. Well..... Future, i wanna sing more songs to the one i love, cuz i want him remember i voice always.

Another day @ Starbucks

2011-06-12T14:36:00.000+09:00

Finally, using 3DS online not a dream anymore. It's convenient like using iphone or laptop. At least to me, YES. No iphone i wont feel upset; but without my 3DS i can't live! Maybe i'm too into this HIGH-TECH console, so far nowadays at Malaysia, i not yet see anyone carrying this, although got ppl buy, still, Malaysian not so aware of it's GOOD. They just thought iphone good, sigh, childish them. Anyway, i'm enjoyed.★

Long Holiday~!

2011-06-10T16:24:00.002+09:00

I think almost a year i didnt update anything here, but at another blog. Well, i have to start back to write in English, by using my broken English, cuz my 3DS only can read English & Japanese, chinese だめ～！！Nevermind, it's good too, at least have to practice my English little by little.

So, I'm back~!

Long lost...

2010-06-16T00:24:00.004+09:00

Few months i didnt active my english blog, i think i have to use back my broken english to write something here. Been very long time at chinese blog, i think my chinese really good enough, and it's time back here again.

Lately i found frens liking those i liked very most b4. I think it back to last year, i told them how nice it is, but they just, "Ya kah...", "Really, i will try on it when i free." Well, i think NOW is their FREE time, that's y my frens found it. Nevermind, at least, no matter when, no matter what, no matter how, I trust my TASTE.

Been sick for a week. Antibiotic still taking, cuz i'm kinda weak. Malaysia's weather VERY HOT, but inside my office i wear my hoodies and zip up. Weird. I hope i can get well soon, cuz i like lost my POINT of view in certain ways i used to.

Now is the 2nd week of school holiday, not so much cars on the road, either day or night. Love the smooth. And dont forget, now is FIFA World Cup season, haha, i didnt watch any game neither the opening ceremony. Maybe, i lost the interest about soccer. Who knows? But, who cares.

End.

Akanishi Jin - DoCoMo CM

2010-03-21T17:01:00.001+09:00

Kazuya Kamenashi at Meringue no Kimochi (19.01.08) 03

2010-03-20T19:14:00.001+09:00

Fun Fun Fun~!!

TVXQ 2nd LIVE TOUR 2007 _ Five in the black - Acappella

2010-03-20T18:42:00.001+09:00

Doing nothing but searching in Youtube, and i found this. Watch back, and i knew why i've been loving them for 5 yrs till now.

With All My Heart ~ Tohoshinki

2010-02-19T22:27:00.004+09:00

With All My Heart ～君が踊る、夏～ (T/N: ~Kimiga odoru, natsu~)
(Lyrics, composed, and arranged by Shinjiroh Inoue)

Artist: 東方神起
Lyrics by: Shinjiroh Inoue
Composed: Shinjiroh Inoue

鏡に映った　掛け違えたシャツのボタン
Kagamini utsutta kakechigaeta shatsuno botan
Reflected on the mirror, the buttons of my shirts are in the wrong buttonholes

そんな些細な事で君がいれば良かったと思う
Sonna sasaina kotode kimiga ireba yokattato omou
Even with these little things, I truly long for you

逢えない時間が　僕らの愛を強くした
Aenai jikanga bokurano aiwo tsuyokushita
The time we cannot spend together has deepened our love

言葉に詰まるならそっと頬にkissをしよう
Kotobani tsumarunara sotto hooni kiss wo shiyou
If I’m at a loss in words, I’ll just kiss you lightly on your cheek

それぞれを待つ日々は　忙しく過ぎるけど
Sorezorewo matsu hibiha isogashiku sugirukedo
The days longing for each other quickly passes by

こんなにもこんなにもただ…
Konnanimo konnanimo tada…
So fast, so fast, only..

逢いたくて　ずっと君を思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimiwo omouyo.. kokorokara kimiwo
I miss you, My thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう一度　my heart 伝えたくて
Mouichido my heart tsutaetakute
Once again, I want to give my heart to you

君が呼べば　僕は行くよ
Kimiga yobeba bokuha yukuyo
If you call me, I’ll go to you

君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

ふとした瞬間　傷ついてしまった心
Futoshita shunkan kizutsuite shimatta kokoro
By mere moments, your heart may be hurt

ひとりじゃ直せない痛み　僕が癒したいよ
Hitorija naosenai itami bokuga iyashitaiyo
I want to comfort your hurts which cannot be healed alone

今逢えない時なら　ただ君の面影を
I ma aenai tokinara tada kimino omokagewo
If I cannot be by your side, I’ll just

抱きしめて　抱きしめてほら…
Dakishimete dakishimete hora …
Hold you shadow in my heart, hold in my heart, and…

どんな日も　ずっと君思うよ…心から君を
Donna himo zutto kimiwo omouyo … kokorokara kimiwo
All the days, my thoughts are always with you… from the bottom of my heart

もう二度と your heart 離さないから
Mou nidoto your heart hanasanaikara
I will never let go of your heart again

君が泣けば　僕は行くよ
Kimiga nakeba bokuha yukuyo
If you cry, I’ll go to you

君をいつも守りたいんだよ
Kimiwo itsumo mamoritaindayo
I want to always stand by your side

君が望むなら　全てを尽くして
Kimiga nozomunara subetewo tsukushite
If it is your wish, I’ll try every means

君の描く未来　永遠の夢を叶えたい I wish
Kimino egaku mirai eienno yumewo kanaetai I wish
I want to grant your future, your eternal dreams, I wish

逢いたくて　ずっと君思うよ… 心から君を
Aitakute zutto kimi omouyo … kokoro kara kimiwo
I miss you, my thoughts are always with you, from the bottom of my heart

何度でも to heart 贈る　smile for you
Nandodemo to heart okuru smile for you
For countless times, to heart, I’ll smile for you

悲しくても　嬉しくても
Kanashikutemo ureshikutemo
Even though sad, or happy

君のそばで笑いたいんだよ
Kimino sobade waraitaindayo
I want to smile by your side

With all my heart
With all my heart
With all my heart

Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you
Find me, and I’ll be there for you

TOHOSHINKI-BREAK OUT MV

2010-02-09T01:14:00.001+09:00

Although they're facing DISBAND problem, but i'm still support their songs! the lyric YENG!!!

Jamie Cullum - Don't Stop The Music live at North Sea Jazz 2009

2010-02-07T21:55:00.001+09:00

In the western music industry, i will choose him as my idol, cuz he's really a musician...

[HD]IU - Gee, Lies, Sorry Sorry @ Yoo Hee-Yeol's Sketchbook(Jul 3, 2009)

2010-02-07T20:33:00.001+09:00

Good in guitar n singing...

[HD 11/07/2009] Park Hyo Shin - Come Back to Me 다시 내게로 돌아와 (KimJungEun's Chocolate)

2010-02-07T20:16:00.001+09:00

My ALL TIME Super Idol!!!

K.will - Hug (Yoo Hee Yeol's Sketchbook)

2010-02-07T19:54:00.001+09:00

Another version, and so nice...

Lyn - Heartbeat, Again and Again, Ring Ding Dong, I Don't Care (YHY's Sketchbook)

2010-02-07T17:44:00.001+09:00

She's the best!

100115 Lyn covering Slow Motion

2010-02-07T17:39:00.001+09:00

Among the korean music industry, i will vote her as the best female singer...

Bored bored bored...

2010-02-05T18:47:00.000+09:00

Perak now...

2010-01-25T18:22:00.005+09:00

I'm now at Lahat, Perak, my old house. I have to bring my ALL FAMILY MEMBERS back KL. Don't get what i mean leh, hahaha... all PASSED AWAY FAMILY MEMBERS...got it? ^____^

At 1st, i tried to use my Celcom broadband to online, who knows here merely no line till i waited for awhile, it FINALLY connected with EDGE. Sigh... i told my mum this, she said,

"Where u think we're now? It's kampung k?"

Oh gosh, my mum also knew this kind of technology wont HIT here. Nevermind, at least i connected now and writing.

Just now went out with Sin, talked a lot, supposed to say, update a lot of news from him about our secondary school friends. Even went drink the kopi ice so many times till beh tahan jor, haha. Finally went his factory saw him working there and 2 little cute dogs which i already taken photos & recorded video ^_^

Tonight i have a date with Oscar too. Ah... so busy... so tired...

2010-01-22T22:36:00.002+09:00

幸福套餐 No.1
1）你的绰号: Sam
2）年龄: 29+
3）生日: 15th Sept
4）星座: Virgo
5）兴趣: 音樂，驾车，喝咖啡
6）专长: 我有吗？

幸福套餐 No.2
1）你有没有喜欢的人？: 不肯定
2）是否现在在交往？: 100%没有
3）现在幸福不？: 不错
4）如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事情？:未婚生子，哈哈～！
5）如果有天，你爱的人和你告白的话？: 有这么一天吗？

幸福套餐No.3
1）点你的人是？: 荣少
2）他是你的？: Blog Friend
3）他的个性？: 我们号称‘龙凤胎’，应该和我差不多吧，哈哈！
4）认识他多久？: 几个星期吧
5）你觉得他怎样？: 脑细胞已经成‘熟’到几乎烂了
6）你想对他说什?: 快点完成那首歌吧

幸福套餐No.4
1）最爱的节目: 两天一夜
2）最爱的音乐: 太多
3）最爱的季节: 秋
4）最爱的卡通: 最近迷上sushi pack
5）最爱的人: 自己
6）最爱的颜色 : 黑
7）最爱的国家: 捷克
8）最爱的天气: 雨天

幸福套餐No.5
1）如果上天给你三个愿望: 我要钱而已
2）你是很专一的人吗？:我也不知道
3）最深刻的回忆？:有吗?
4）你是个很有信心的人吗？: 某程度上，是
5）你很爱微笑吗？: 我比较喜欢大笑
6）如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗？: 没想过
7）妄想什么样的生活？: 不愁没钱
8）是否横刀夺爱才是爱？: 哇，如果你被横刀夺爱呢？

荣少，我的blog没什么人会来看，所以没打算点8个人。对不起。

Nelly - N Dey Say

2010-01-11T00:43:00.001+09:00

Just now dunno SOT which nerve, i search my song albums and found this, Nelly - N Dey Say. I like this lyric.

- i used to think that life had a plan for me
until i realized life had to be planned by me
see that's the key i only deal wit what i can see
cuz over history, mystery brought us nothin but misery
man more people done died in the name of the Lord
then in any natural disaster, disease or gang wars
before guns they was swords and they was killin each other
And what's changed to this day still killin each other
killin a brother while another mother cries for help
man, we need to help a brother find himself
feed 'em light 1, 2, 3
hey that's somethin every brother should see -

Look at the newspapers in Malaysia, i really fed up.

Goodbye Uncle Steven

2010-01-08T17:21:00.003+09:00

He's a good senior to me, he taught me a lot. We went China together, he's like my father taking good care of me. And, the most memorable moment is he bought me a green tea ice cream while our bus stopped by at the highway "REST STOP", that day just after snowing, VERY COLD. That was the 1st time i ate ice cream @ 2 celcius degree plus very strong wind, COLD! But surprisingly, when i bite it, so warm~! Thanks uncle Steven.

He's the one who ALWAYS came to me & Ann and INVITE us to drink beers with him, maybe we look a like kids~!! I remember that day each of us drank 10 bottles during dinner, haha~!! So sorry i told i dunno drink alcohol, but i think u knew i was lying, cuz you knew our family so well, how come I dunno drink alcohol leh? Haha, already well trained from small :p

Back to Malaysia, we went out for lunch at Oversea Restaurant, you told me a lot of your old time stories, I enjoyed to listen it.

But today morning, when i received the news you passed away, i really feel so sad about it. I lost a nice uncle, nice 'father' as i always dream to have one. I will miss you all the time, and will remember the jokes you said, and the stories of you. Goodbye to you, uncle Steven.

Peace

2010-01-07T01:28:00.001+09:00

Surprisingly tonight's weather so nice, windy, it tells me going to rain. I smell it. Haha...

Listening to songs and doing my homeworks, like a normal teenager routine works. But i'm enjoyed. One of my fren said,

"U know what? everyday i have to study my son's work books and accompany him do the homeworks which i don't even know what it talks about. Their generation really sucks, standard 2 children has to study standard 6's syllabus."

Yup, i read my cousin's book, i don't even know to answer the questions, most of its. I'm so sorry to my secondary school teachers T___T Only remember those languages i learnt, all the sciences (Biology, Physic, Chemistry) already throw away loh~!! Hahah!!

Am i?

2010-01-06T16:45:00.002+09:00

Lately Derrick & Mag said i'm a bit WEIRD, maybe there's something wrong with me thru the chatting. Am i? I guess no. Just that time feel to say like that, and, I guess is because i'm tired. So sorry ya, gave you 2 wrong signal :p

But a little down, is yes. Dued to certain reason, I'm even a bit, yup, just BIT, pissed off. Family matters, sigh... Already fed up talking to mum sometimes, pls stop blaming our NG family. If you really hate us, just leave, i won't block your road, go ahead.

Sigh...

Sick...

2010-01-04T23:59:00.002+09:00

2nd day of 2010, i sick. This remind me last year, when i resigned and back home, sickness accompanied me stepped in 2009 around a week i was lying down on my bed. Then i cough about 2 months, what a shit.

Now, I'm still not feeling well, stomach very pain, not becuz of gastric, but pain. I don't even have the PROPER feel of HUNGRY or FULL, just see the time then eat. Am i sick badly now? Maybe not right? Forget about it, cuz i'm still drink my kopi ice.

Looking 2009, was a good year to me too. Nothing to blame. Thanks.

Last Hour @ 2009

2010-01-01T00:08:00.002+09:00

现在是23：10 pm，31st Dec 2009.

2009年最后的一个小时，我在家，和老妈子一起看电视度过。我本来就很排斥人多的地方，所以，从来没想过到外和人挤。

回顾2009，今年过得特别快，我也特别忙，真正做了什么，我也好想没什么印象啊。就这么过了，唉。。。

所以,2010，我要身体健康和工作顺利。爱情嘛，就随缘吧。

新年快乐！

Dinner

2009-12-31T00:59:00.004+09:00

Just had my dinner with Alyn, we went Sg Wang 6th floor korean restaurant. Just wanna have a meet and see the notes on the wall, and sharing our lately happening.

Above note, was written by someone, reason i took photo is because her dreams / wishes are my wish too, hahahh~!!

2010, i think i just calm, won't think too much. Study bah.....

JJ 林俊傑 [第幾個100天] OFFICIAL MV

2009-12-29T14:25:00.001+09:00

Super love this song, especially lyric..

未公开金贞恩的巧克力神起部分

2009-12-25T04:06:00.002+09:00

Long time didnt hear Jae Jung sings this song, and never know Chang Min can sings this kind of song too.

Libertango(리베르탱고) - Yoyoma(요요마)

2009-12-18T15:50:00.001+09:00

Just like this song so much...

베토벤바이러스 - 리베르탱고-정희연(송옥순)

2009-12-18T15:30:00.001+09:00

what's dream about? This is it. Dare to chase. Never give up.

My Violin

2009-12-16T00:48:00.002+09:00

I took back my violin from service, changed 4 strings and tuned. The music store owner asked me,

"When you bought this violin?" - Owner.

"More than 10 yrs ago." - Me

"How long you didn't touch it?" - Owner.

"Haha, also more than 10 yrs. Why?" - Me.

"Cuz the violin still in very good condition, and the sound so nice. Where you get this? I saw the wording inside the violin body is German. You bought from German?" - Owner.

"It's really from German, but i bought at Ipoh music school." - Me.

"What grade you're before you stopped?" - Owner.

"Em... Grade 3 or 4? I don't remember. But now i don't even remember the fingering well. Haha!!!" - Me.

"Is it? Nevermind, come this Sunday class, let's see Ms Ong put u which grade." - Owner.

"Ok." - Me.

Not so SHOW OFF, but just too surprised my violin still in good condition till others curious to ask about that. I really forgot all the fingering but ONE, just ONE, the normal A Major. Don't know why.

Anyway, just enjoy~!!

Beethoven Virus

2009-12-13T22:24:00.004+09:00

I bought the DVD 3 weeks ago cuz the download version ending i lost it, so regretted. 8tv last few weeks shown it too. A coincident i watched it and made up my mind bought the DVD.

Now, i'm watching. And, it did bring me back to the dream. A dream to become a musician. But it already far far away story. I dunno when will i turn back to the dream, but i will try.

I read a book before, "NEVER TOO LATE". Talked about a middle age man learned cello at age 40, but still, he can plays well. Well, i'm going 30, should be ok to chase my dream right? Everybody got right to chase their dream, either me. I was a girl who always wanna escape, yes, i am. But i think within this 4 years, i changed a lot.

This is the time, i wanna cross the line, step forward.

Wash Away My Bad Luck

2009-12-13T12:13:00.002+09:00

Early Sunday morning woke up like normal working day and called up my aunt, Nga Nga, for breakfast as she asked for yesterday. But, sigh... she still sleeping that time, wtf... I won't sleep back cuz the sun so strong and hot from outside thru my curtain. I drove to 33 Restaurant had my breakfast curry mee hoon & white coffee.

Finished all, on the way back home, had a sudden thought,

"I wanna wash away my bad luck, my car too." Immediate turned my wheel towards to car wash centre.

I dunno will it help or not, but psycologically, from my mind, i think it will.

Superstitous.

My Story

2009-12-12T21:34:00.002+09:00

Last night midnight time, i still feel headache about my accident case, i had a thought to read my story, just random found one. Read & read & read... I was following the story line and the climax too, for that second, I talked to myself,

"Shall i give up working and continue my story will do leh?" Rediculous.

Maggie, i owe you the story, and as i promise, i will write soon. Yup, is SOON. Cuz i also curious how the characters and story go on. Haha...

RM289

2009-12-12T16:49:00.003+09:00

Saturday supposed sing K with frens, i was expected it coming so long you know? But early morning i received a call from Kajang to settle the accident happening after works. So the final result is, the fellow already repaired his bike and asked for motorcycle repair money RM289. Yup, is RM289, i was shocked why he wanted to repair and doesn't want go report to police. After some argument, at the end, i paid. BUT, i asked him signed on the bill and i wrote some kind like a agreement letter which proved he agreed i paid that amount and there's no further claim after this. Of cuz i asked a police as a witness that i paid to the old man by cash. Finally, settled.

RM289 not a small amount, but i feel wasted too. But think another way, if the money can settle the problem, why not? My life wont only THIS RM289 with me, there're still a lot of RM289 coming to me. I won't think too much on it.

Must...

2009-12-12T01:51:00.000+09:00

I wanna end the problem asap

Morning

2009-12-11T10:30:00.002+09:00

A so called busy morning to me and i really no time to think about the accident anymore. And dont forget, compound i also need to pay money, and even have to pay to the motorcycle repairing fees, all MONEY, if i'm not work hard, how i settle?

All my frens, i'm fine and thanks ur sms, messages at fb, calls. But just mood bad. Nothing related to u all, just that accident made me feel SIEN.

Last night korean class Dawn was not there, she sick. My & Cyrus after class went for dinner, chat a lot about Korea & Korean. It's a very good talk with him.

P.S. Dawn, u really look & act like a REAL KOREAN to him, hahah~!!!

Accident

2009-12-10T18:21:00.003+09:00

From yesterday i felt i was so bad luck already, who knows today accident somemore. Shit.

I already fed up to tell the story here cuz i've been asking by so many ppl, especially traffic police. I was surprisingly steady and settled the case in a very PROFESSIONAL way. Tired and angry and hungry from the accident happened till i back office now. The only thing is can be ASSUMED lucky is, the old indian man didnt get serious hurt, neither the motorcycle. My car? Man, i'm driving Mitsubishi Pajero, tough enough to stand from any bang. 2nd, i met a nice looking doctor in emergency room, Dr. Teh. I kept asking him about the condition of the old indian man, but till the part i requested for the old man medical report to show the police,

"Are you going to give me the uncle's condition report to show the police? cuz i have to go report now." - Me

"Huh? No need here, you just straight go report to the traffic police will do." - Dr. Teh

"Why? We supposed to bring along right? To show them this old man in good condition." - Me

"In Malaysia nothing to do with it..." - Dr. Teh

"But it supposed a must right? Why Malaysia like that?" - Me

"... Which country you come from?" - Dr. Teh

"Huh? Hahaha..." - Me

I just laughed and didnt answer his question but he also smile back to me at that moment. Not that i wanna refuse to admitt I AM MALAYSIAN; but just his question made me feel like not to answer it.

Well, wait tomorrow the old indian man's X-Ray report out then will know whether i need to compoun or not.

Really a BAD BAD BAD day. Shit.

Blogger Templates

2009-12-10T10:12:00.003+09:00

After a TRAINING by KY & Dawn, changed the blog template, i felt regret cuz i have to find back all other applications. Kinda make me sick of it, cuz lazy.

Anyway, today will be a very tough day again, sigh... i might not in good mood some how. Sigh...

First Snow @ Korea

2009-12-08T21:34:00.002+09:00

Dont miss understand from the title above, I'm talk about Mae Juin, just saw her photos at facebook, so excited and happy. Snowing really make ppl happy in certain of way, especially to us who are living in summer ONLY country ppl. Last time when i was at Beijing, i merely wanna run out from the airport, but cannot loh T__T i only can looked at the snow from inside the airport.

Sigh... 너무 부럽다!!!

Focus Point...

2009-12-07T10:36:00.003+09:00

Shit... My bag gone...

2009-12-06T15:27:00.001+09:00

I supposed get it last week, who knows the bag gone already when i went there just now. Why like that... T____T The shop owner asked me ordered for black color one, but i refused, cuz the feeling different. I rather don't carry any.

Sigh.....

너 때문에

2009-12-04T23:21:00.003+09:00

Do you gals know AFTER SCHOOL? A group of girls idol singers, not that popular here i think, but now at Korea quite HOT. At the beginning i also not interested in their music cuz too normal, but till i listen their latest single, the song name 너 때문에 (BECAUSE OF YOU), totally can't stop but listen to it everytime i drive, repeat & repeat & repeat... addicted. Haha...

1st week of Dec going to end, times pass so fast, going to finish 2009. This year EXTREMELY fast comes the end of year, till i dunno what i had done in this whole year. Projects & travel. Nothing else but that.

Coming Christmas i will go Singapore with frens. Hopefully can have a nice holiday and memorable christmas celebration there ^^

Bak Kuk Teh vs Korean Food

2009-12-04T21:55:00.003+09:00

I remember from last week till today, i already ate 3 times bak kuk teh, 4 times korean food, continuosly. A fren of mine said i'm crazy; another fren of mine said i'm so rich; the other fren of mine said why not western food. Just, it's only JUST wanna eat that, feeling there, so follow loh.

Back from work...

2009-12-04T11:03:00.002+09:00

Now is 1030am, i'm sitting inside office, my IT place. Already 3 days i didnt online, feel tired to online see new things.

Feeling upset and disappointed. Why? Haha, some feel they got enough experience to deal with anything, but they don't know they're making other suffer outside. Deep? No lah.

I'm getting well now, only flu & cough. Everything will be alright. And, i'll back to NORMAL life soon ^^

*P.S.: I went Garden trying to search my lovely present, but failed.

열병 (fever), 감기(flu), 기침(cough)

2009-12-01T17:39:00.002+09:00

3rd day, I still sick as mentioned above title, i dunno what i did last week made me sick. Now even my eyes started HEAT UP @_@

Sigh... i tried rest earlier and took meds; but since i'm too stress for project, cannot be healed easily.

Thanks Alyn & Mag, i'll be fine.

Sitting at office, just back from site, no mood to work but online surfing. Waiting the time reach, 1800pm. Tonight, I wanna eat BAK KUK TEH.

Cry...

2009-11-30T22:51:00.002+09:00

Today really very CHAM, sigh... dunno how to write out.

Night time worked till 8pm then can off work from my hotel site. Too tired & stress out after talked with lady boss. On the way driving back to house i listened to mp3, all fast & tempo songs, made my angry reached the top, and i suddenyl turned my wheel and drove to 33 Restaurant eat Bak Kuk Teh.

Along the road i'm in a very tension & angry mood, cuz from my driving speed i knew it, and the songs also so NGAM that timing. 6 mins to left i reach my destiny, mp3 playing 황태경live "어떡하죠". Dunno why, once i listen his first sentence of the lyric, my tears dropped non stop & cried. I even sang & cried in the same time, heartbreak.

Sigh...

Monday sick badly...shit...

2009-11-30T11:01:00.003+09:00

From last night i already started fever, but didn't expect IT'll continue till today. It's not a good sign cuz today my works so FULL @ Fraser Place KL a.k.a my hotel site. Fever, sore throat & flu, hopefully not H1N1.

When i woke up this early morning, 1st thought: how bout take leave today? After that 2 thought came out: No, cuz i need money. I stood up immediately then rush to get ready myself to work. Since when i'm so money minded? Sigh...

So tired listen my purchaser talking to my supplier that my locker cannot send today, and they even said "if you not satisfy then cancel lah". What the hell of that kind of service they provide? Promise then promise, why business ppl always cannot keep their promise??

I have to do something, drink something, calm down a bit then go in front my customer and let them scold me GAO GAO.

Shit...

Life

2009-11-30T02:42:00.002+09:00

I got a fren who going to marry a korean guy, and her fiance have to base Turkey 2 yrs, so their wedding have to postpone. But she will go Turkey this coming Friday and will stay there 2 months. How nice!!!

Sigh... sometimes we really needed to admit, we all really TONG YAN EM TONG MEANG ah (同人不同命）...

I got another fren, who dying wanna go Korea, but she cant. Like myself, i also wanted go Korea, but end up go China 1st, haha, how funny... Dying to have something, always wont get it. I learned.

Changed

2009-11-30T01:55:00.002+09:00

Lately i heard the most from the ppl surrounding me is, YOU CHANGED.

Yes, i am. And, thanks for those who said now i become prettier, or some said me started go on sexy line. Well, actually it makes me happy cuz the result is that OBVIOUS.

Money & patient made NOW me.

High Cut

2009-11-30T01:22:00.005+09:00

Today went Time Square had dinner with Dawn, then bought a lip gross from Etude. Suddenly had a thought to go Ms. Chong's shop see weather got any special things can be grabbed back or not. Haha, i really lucky, i found THEM.

Relax = Boring? Nah....

2009-11-28T20:16:00.003+09:00

Now sitting on my sofa, right side TV on, front is my laptop which i'm typing my words now. The only Saturday night i didn't go out or hang around with frens. A bit EMPTY, but not till make me feel boring cuz internet got a lot of thing let me discover, hihi ^^

Where're my frens? Haha, all got dated and i'm the one who get left behind. Supposed have dinner with Dawn, but she feel sick, of cuz i'm ok with it, thinking go visit her also. Even Mag also sick badly at States, so worried you 2.

Now thinking should i go out or stay at home, hihi... Will update at next post, haha~!!!

*P.S. He's my latest dream guy, haha~!! And, this yepp, i will grab it soon!!!!!!

Where am i?

2009-11-28T18:28:00.002+09:00

Haha, supposed to write a best title, but i think it's good enough, cuz i'd lost for almost 3 months, away from my blog. I feel guilty because the reason i away from HERE was that STUPID. Still, i will put my full effort to update my story here.

Then, what i most crazy about now? Haha, must be "미남이시네요" this korean drama. Another idol drama which captured my eyes, took away my heart mind & soul, some more changed my thinking, too. I tell myself, next year maybe a tough year to me according the chinese horoscope prediction, haha, BUT, i wanna earn as much as i can and fly to Korea. After the China trip, i saw a lot and learned a lot from history, environment, ppl, and etc.

Oh ya, you gals watch 2012? Haha, it really a meaningful movie, although most of them said the story a bit exaggerated. But who cares? I like it will do. Life is so short, let's enjoy~!!!

等待

2009-09-23T14:57:00.004+09:00

我在等待。。。

虽说我很怕爱情，可是我也很兴奋期待~！！！！这种‘是，又不是’的暧昧时刻最开心~！！

Today is my birthday~!!

2009-09-15T16:55:00.003+09:00

15th September lah~!! Today i take leave, i should say, every year i will take leave during my birthday cuz i don't wanna work on my birthday, how torture @_@

Anyway, wish me everything goes VERY SMOOTH~!!!

Love Myself

2009-08-29T22:48:00.002+09:00

See my header? Yeah, just now don't know SOT which nerve, kept on taking photo myself, like i'm so photogenic, of cuz the truth is NOT. Well, a woman near to 30, maybe will have this habit, trying to act young and show others 'I AM YOUNG', hahah...

These 2 weeks i'm so easy headache, take the Panadol Active Fast like taking meal that frequent. I knew it's not good for help but can't help. And i found the reason why i headache:

FAT = HIGH BLOOD PRESURE

Not kidding you all, now even myself also feel I'M FAT~!!! Arh~!!! Gotta stop eating so much and have to follow my lady boss go jogging!!!

Surprisingly Reunion~!!

2009-08-28T20:37:00.002+09:00

Never thought will have the chance to meet back those primary & secondary school mates, haha... And i found they changed a lot, either me (according their words about me).

Suddenly a lot of memories flashing back and played like a drama series, it's amazing but scary. Most of them married and got children, only a few of us still remain single. I thought only me the winner as the Diamond Wong 5 (钻石王老五), haha... Friends separated all over the world i think, they travel around, they met their soulmates, and finally started their own family. Some of them even 180 degrees changed compare the old time. When i looked at the photos, i can't stopped but laughing out loud till my colleagues asked "Now what?" Haha, told her what had happened and she told me the same,

"You'll never know 10 yrs later, all your old friends sure will become more rediculous." Then she walked away.

I think so.

So now, what i wanted to do, is make sure myself look young whenever they see me, cuz most of them said,

"Why you look like 18 22? The picture is you?" or,
"What had happened to you? Eat what medicine?"

Haha... Thanks you all, i wish i can maintain my YOUNG at least 5 more years.

A New Begin

2009-08-23T12:10:00.002+09:00

Because of the court case in between TVXQ & SM, I believe we all feel tired too. Lately their schedule a little bit not that GROUPY anymore.

2 days before Yu Chun and Jae Jung went Japan attended a small concert promoted their new song "Colors~ Melody & Harmony" and sang other songs, too. Among of its, they choose BEGIN, used to be performed by 5 people, but now only by 2 of them. At first when I came across the news about this, I was like, ‘My goodness, how they perform?’ . But after I listened it, my worried gone. And suddenly I have another thought, in future if these 2 ppl wanna form a group, I don’t think will be any problem to them. It’s not that I wanna separate 5 of them, but the situation for this case seems not that good enough or clear. The worst ending will be living from SM, but to continue as TVXQ by sharing with 2 different company, I think it’s not possible.

Be honest, to me, it still can acceptable. No matter what kind of way they come out in future, what kind of combination they form out, I’m still support 5 of them. Like my title said, this will be their New Begin.

Timeless

2009-08-16T00:56:00.002+09:00

Today just downloaded my beloved singer, very talented singer, Khalil Fong's new album 'TIMELESS'!!! All the tracks are old song, i love his new version on all the songs, at least it's another taste and feel to me. Especially Faye Wong's 'RED BEAN', lovely...

오미빈하고 박유천 둘이 정말 닮아...

2009-08-11T02:53:00.004+09:00

I don't know since when i started notice him, and i don't know since when i realized we're same. I'm talked about our thought and attitude, our taste and chioce. It's hard to make other believe, but we both don't know each other, both not living in the same country, both no even have a point which can link us together. Of cuz, he's an idol that everybody knew, crazy about to. If there's a wish i can make, I have one. Haha... I can't tell here, cuz it won't DREAM COMES TRUE loh...

Micky Yoochun- The Sensible Fool.
Confident,Strong (mentally la.) Kind and thoughtful. Generally socially unawkward. Keeps problems to self, only confiding in people whom you trust. Usually coming off as happy and cheerful, you can brighten the day for anyone. You're a can of corn, and nearly anyone has the tool to open you up. Yes, you're really as corny as the farmer's yearly harvest. You're lotsa fun anyday. You've probably driven people to embarrassment by making them guffaw out loud in public like that. Flirtatious. You're likely popular and you make good use of it. You may play the fool and all, but your family and other loved ones are whom you hold close to your heart and would never hurt them unless you had a reaaaaaaaaaaaaally good reason. Really. You can tell right from wrong. Most of the time, anyway. You often succumb to temptations, and somehow put play before work, even when the other half of your brain is kicking your conscience about it. Generally optimistic and lovable, friends just can't say 'no' to you, nor can they bear to hurt your feelings on purpose. You're the popular kid! People love you, and they can't stay away. You leave great impressions upon first meetings, but not necessarily keep the lasting image. Of course, it depends on what kind of person you meet with. You think about others a lot, but still harbours selfish intentions from time to time. You are possibly drifty, or seem that way, 'coz you love to daydream. Not a bad pastime, yeah. Aside from it being quite a waste of time. You probably look back and reflect on your enormous time wastage quite often. Control your thoughts a bit more and let yourself prioritise efficiently. Disallowing 'play' to triumph over 'work' will be a good start. It'll help to get your act together. You may have your own insecurities, but you have your own ways to deal with it. You're altogether a great friend and entertaining chatmate, and you pretty much love the life you live. :) P/s. Just guessing, you're probably a Gemini or Aries, or are of the blood type O.

Special Dedicate to Maggie... Evisu Model...

2009-08-08T01:00:00.003+09:00

Maggie, I supposed put these all on facebook, but failed. So, I hope you'll like it lah~!!

I hate 6877

2009-08-05T23:43:00.000+09:00

I don't wanna explain why, but i hate this number 6877.

Broken String

2009-08-05T21:17:00.002+09:00

Today i fetched Kok How took ABRSM piano exam at Hotel Istana. When we arrived very early tried to regist that time, he told me didn't bring IC and the crew said, "NO IC, NO EXAM." Pissed off and no choice but drive back asap to get his wallet. This fellow really... sigh...

Well, of cuz everything on time and when he stepped inside the room, i sit aside waiting. Looking around the corridor, parents waiting with anxious facial expression, cuz their children taking exam inside a very cold room. (I experienced before, inside really cold @_@) And, all of them worried about their children will nervous till can't play well in front of the examiner.

When the time Kok How's playing piano, he's nervous too. And, suddenly i think back very long long ago story, back to... em... 20 yrs ago? Ah... SO DAMN LONG AGO leh... Yup, i took piano exam too, and i mere don't have any idea why i was there at that moment i was playing, haha... After few years when i was in secondary school, i started learn violin for 3 yrs, but i didn't take exam, cuz i scared. In my opinion, music instrument is for fun; if you force me to take exam, i rather quit. That' why, at the end i quited and the violin staying next to me till now, it still there. But it got one string broken so long, and i just ignored it.

Now, i think of learn back violin if possible, I mean: money, time & space. So, if yes, i will update here.

Online @ Home

2009-08-04T19:37:00.002+09:00

Finally i got my broadband @ home, at least won't feel bore after watching ASTRO. Got more time on my works. Ya correct, i'm talking about working.

Sometimes i doesn't wanna work at office cuz lack of time staying / sitting on my chair doing paper works; so, i rather bring things back home continue. Some of my customers or suppliers complained me so bored cuz don't wanna go out with them during happy hour. Ya, i rather stay home watch ASTRO, i rather play my laptop, i rather eat at home, i rather read book at home, etc.

You know what? Lately i'm so into a korean drama call "He Can't Marry", story about a woman doctor & a well known architecture guy already reached 40 yrs old, BUT still single. It's very realistically, everytime i watch it, i also think the same,

"Will i end up my life like them?"

Of cuz i'm not a professional like them, but at least i got a job which still single like them. Sigh... Anyway, if you interested, have a watch on it, "결혼 못 하는 남자"

分裂

2009-08-03T10:21:00.001+09:00

8月1日，当天我抱着兴奋的心情等待我的banner回来时，我却收到一个噩耗，“东方神起面临解散的危机”。等到我接过banner，回到家把自己的那张挂上的那一刻，我望着它好一段时间，突然我有那么一点想哭，可是我没有。没有一个很正确的字眼能形容我的心情，我想，用人类最为接近的字眼，应该是‘分裂’了。我的banner，是一个背对着我弹钢琴的朴有天。今年的演唱会我还没有看，可是照片就很多很多，特别是他的背影照。

很久以前，我也有说过我和东方神起的姻缘，也托他们的福，我重新振作，变成今天的我。也因为他们，我坚持学韩文，认识了很多朋友，唱歌技巧也进步了，人生改写了很多很多。因为他们，这三年我过得很充实，也很忙碌，虽然只见过他们两次，但也很满足。当然，我几乎把所有的时间，都给了他们，算是我的男朋友们了。

今天，当我驾车时，突然把唱机转去听CD，因为我想听他们的声音。第一张CD是他们的，第一首歌是‘STAND BY U’，听到在中的第一句歌词，握着方向盘的手真的抖了，再听到chorus部分的歌词，我真的留下眼泪哭了。

君はどこにいて誰とどこにいて
Where are you now? Who are you being with?

どんな服を着て何して笑ってるんだろう
What kind of clothes are you wearing? What are you doing and laughing at?

僕はここにいて今もここにいて
I am right here, even now, I am right here.

君と二人でまた会えると信じているよ
And I still believe that we will see each other again, you're the only one I'm thinking of.

君がどこにいて誰とどこにいて
No matter where you are, no matter who you are being with

どんな夢を見て何して笑っていても
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of, or what you are doing and laughing at

ずっとここにいて今もここにいて
I will be here forever, even now I am right here

君といつの日か逢えると信じているよ
Believing in a day that we will meet again

我不祈求自己能和他们做朋友，可是就希望就算他们要解散，也不会是一这种形式来结束这组合的名运。其中一位朋友说，这新闻对她来说，等于失恋般备受打击，上网的目的也好像没有了。也许吧，因为对一些不认识他们或对他们不关心的人来说，东方神起算什么？不过是个歌手嘛。可是对于他们的歌迷们，这确实是个相当的打击。

本来我不想把心里的不快写出来，因为我实在写不下。可是，5 分钟前我下了朴有天的LOVE BYE LOVE演唱会live版，坐在地上望着banner上他弹钢琴的背影，正是这首歌，用mp3听见他的钢琴弹奏，一句一句的把歌词慢慢的唱出来，突然他说了，

“울지마,너무 미안해”

我是真的哭出声音来了，我赶快用手遮住我的哭声，感觉就像是他站在我面跟我说分手般，除了哭，我没有别的反应了。这是我生平除了前男友外，第二次为了男人而哭了，而且是五个不认识我的男人，多没用。可是，别人可以为了MJ哭得死来活去，为什么我不可以？他们也是影响我人生的重要男人啊。

现在已经是凌晨两点半了，我真的睡不下，因为他们的记者会，今天就举行了，到底会变成怎样呢？他们，是不是也在韩国那边，和我一样担心得睡不着呢？

One Day Off

2009-07-24T10:27:00.000+09:00

23rd July 2009, today I took leave, but I woke up earlier than normal working day.

0715: Wake up take bath
0815: Fetch mum go Wangsa Maju Jusco
0900: Go BAE International buy meds for mum
1000: Go Jalan Cheras Mc Donald’s have breakfast
1100: Go KLCC watch Harry Potter 6
1120: Start movie
1400: Go Kinokuniya
1500: Back office
1530: Go Jusco Maluri Black Canyon Coffee Restaurant have lunch
1630: Go MPH
1700: Back home

Already 1 year didn’t step inside cinema; today went cinema alone watched Harry Potter, feeling good. I think I skipped episode 4 & 5, that’s why I’m not so sure what had happened for certain parts or scenes. But never mind, I still enjoyed the environment inside.

After Harry Potter, I thought to watch Transformer or Ice Age, but I gave up on Transformer cuz I think I can watch DVD at home. Then I decided watch Ice Age 3D, BUT!!! I’m so unlucky, the 3D version only at 1800 evening, so I gave up, too.

I went Kinokuniya collected my magazine and found my comic came out new volume. I tried to convince myself not to walk so fast (my normal walking speed), cuz I have times to enjoy my holiday. Slow down my speed, I thought of buying a 3D Max book or AutoCAD 2010 book, for a long time choosing, I bought a 45mm thickness, AutoCAD 2010 teaching book at RM111.80. Sigh, actually I feel heartache cuz really expensive, but for my future, I bought it.

For this whole month, July, I bought a lot of things, especially books. Not much money left, have to save now T________T

Hush Puppies

2009-07-20T11:20:00.002+09:00

昨天突然不知道为什么，心血来潮跑进HUSH PUPPIES的鞋店买了一双舒舒服服的鞋子，虽然很贵，RM170，但穿上去真的很舒服。

Scandal

2009-07-20T10:22:00.000+09:00

I watched Nichkhun’s Scandal, I got a question,

“if all the episode ending the idol also think that dating will tie down their career because they are celebrity, and personally or one sided think that maybe himself can’t spend more time on the girl, then what’s the point this program out?”

Be frank, I think the producer is smart. Even though he/she knew this is NO MEANING when comes to the end, BUT, it brings DREAMS or IMAGINATION to all the idols’ fans. From commerce angle, it’ll bring the audience rating.

But, I still wonder, will Nichkhun stop contact with the girl? I don’t know. But when he asked,

“형도 연애하고 싶잖아요?”

I think his heart was shaking, 흔들렸었어요. But at last, he made up his mind, career important than anything. Well, maybe that was only his ACTING in front of camera, or that was only a script from this program. If one day you have this LUCK to date with a celebrity for 7 days, can you let it go so easy?

Learning

2009-07-15T16:07:00.003+09:00

很久一段时间我没有写过中文的post了，每次的每次，我都想了很多要说的话，可是到最后我都没有写下。今天放工后，看完Music Bank，我立刻收拾桌子，好让我有个像样的地方打字。现在，我终于可以安安静静地打打字，哈哈。

我的project这星期就要完工了，我要hand over给顾客了。由接job到争job，再由争到这个job然后开工到现在，应该就快3个月了。刚开始好像过得很慢，可是现在又觉得太快了，有一点点舍不得。这3个月来，真的要感谢帮助过我的每一位前辈们，他们真的毫不吝啬地教会我很多office里头看不到学不到的东西。人情事故也好，专业知识也好，真的学会了好多好多。因为这次的机会，我更想旷阔我的工作圈子，我想更进一步去学建筑的东西。首要原因是因为钱，始终建筑赚钱比较快，当然也比一般工作辛苦；二来，我发觉自己对画图蛮有兴趣的，虽说我的画工或设计还是皮毛，但是我在找着夜校或短期课程来充实自己，希望可以学以致用。

本来已为可以开始上韩文班，谁知道原来是beginner的班级，空欢喜一场。我很久很久没有说韩文，只是但但看韩剧和韩国节目，还有听韩文歌曲来keep着不要让自己忘记单词。日文也是自修中，反正没有合适的班级，我自己慢慢学吧。

日子没有过得特别有意思，也不会很闷，像我之前提过的，我一直在‘学’东西，배우하고 있어요。

Blog Header

2009-07-14T18:46:00.001+09:00

I found this at Baidu Hero Bar, he waved his hand at Beijing Airport to fans.

Video Scope

2009-07-13T11:22:00.000+09:00

Channel [V] Video Scope’s showing TVXQ a.k.a. Tohoshinki all music video from 2000 till 2100. It’s amazing. From the earliest HUG, Rising Sun, O Jung Ban Hup, Purple Line, Loving You, till Beautiful You, Mirotic, どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？and Share The World.

Actually I was thinking to call some of my friends to watch it too; but after awhile, I gave up. Please don’t call me selfish cuz I didn’t call them, it’s because I don’t know they STILL like TVXQ or not. I had an experience last time to call up a friend to watch or share some news about TVXQ, she just not interested like before. Be honest, that time I felt I’m so stupid. After that incident, I told myself not be a busy body to KACAU others. To enjoy something, own self will do. Of course sharing is very important in our life, but I’m just scared the same happening will happen again.

Talking about TVXQ, I’ve already 20 months didn’t see them LIVE in front of me. Not like my friends, they went Bangkok, Korea, Taiwan or Japan enjoyed the concerts. I’m so jealous about them, but what to do? They all can afford it. I only can watch TVXQ thru internet downloaded video or pictures taken by the diehard fans. Anyway, still the same right? At least, I buy the original CD to support the record selling. Sigh…

Today I went a lot of places:
1) Lunch with mum at Maluri well known seafood noodles restaurant
2) Sent my mum to Jusco
3) Back Glenmarie checked the site cuz tomorrow have to lay carpet
4) Went down to Alam Damai ate Wan Tan mee and enjoyed my white coffee
5) Went Ampang Mitsubishi to get a test drive on Pajero Sport but temporary no test drive cuz all sold out. But luckily there’s a new car left there and the owner only will collect it by Tuesday, I had a touched on it! And, a coincidence the car number is 1189.
6) Went Angie’s house discussed with her regarding the car loan thing and read newspapers, and gave Jia Wen spelling test.
7) Went Kinokuniya collect book I ordered but the condition not good enough I rejected it, and asked them change a new one for me. But, I still grabbed a Japanese dictionary back home
8) Arrived home, and went bought my dinner at my downstairs restaurant
9) Finally, I stepped in my house

The whole day, (again) I was thinking to call a friend out, but I didn’t cuz I don’t know will I disturb their routine happy hours or not. That’s why, (again) enjoyed my time alone.

tvxq new CF

2009-07-09T17:08:00.001+09:00

They all so cute!!!!!

Look Alike Sakura Street @ Glenmarie, Shah Alam

2009-07-06T10:59:00.004+09:00

Along Glenmarie's factory area, got a lot of trees now blooming, like i'm staying at Japan, enjoying site seeing the beautiful Sakura... Picnic maybe...

이젠 I feel a little confused...

2009-07-04T10:39:00.004+09:00

Lately I'm so into this little 'toy' (or... playing?) I don't know how to call it, but I love it so, especially when i feel stress or wanted a deep think, i will play it. Looking the liquid inside dropping, such a good release tension way for me.

Time

2009-07-02T12:53:00.000+09:00

My layouts, calculation, email, etc… till now, 0112 morning, 2nd July 2009, STILL NOT YET FINISH. But, my mum asked me sleep first, cuz,

“Long life works, Long life do”.

Maybe she’s right, that’s why I hope can spare out some times to type something.

Time really pass by so damn fast, till I don’t know how to use it in proper, or more efficiency.

Uncomfortable

2009-06-30T09:59:00.000+09:00

30th June 2009, 19:13pm

Stayed overnight at my BOSS’s house last night, it’s big, got air con, got maid, got big bed, soft pillow & boaster, got internet, etc; BUT, I can’t fall asleep easily.

And now, Monday, after work, I go back my own house, still without water supply, but I’m happy. My house small, no air con, no maid, no big bed, no internet, etc; BUT, I can sleep anytime anywhere inside my house.

Chinese always say,

“Dragon bed can’t compare with dog hole”.

Like my mum says, home sweet home. I think so. But due to my apartment car park problem, I can’t stay here if I late back. That’s why, I can’t enjoy my ‘Home Sweet Home’ idea. Sigh…

Shift

2009-06-29T13:11:00.002+09:00

Mum wanna shift to another place, cuz since last 2 days our apartment no water supply, even the lift got problem. Actually before this, i think to shift too, cuz parking problem. Mum informed our house owner just now, if the water supply problem cannot be settled, we'll move on the coming 15th July. But i'm afraid that time i'm damn busy for this project ending works.

To find a new place to shift, not as easy as you think. I dunno where can i get a suitable place to stay.

1) Convenient to take public transport for my mum to go work

2) Got parking and safe

3) Maintenance ok

4) House rent not over 700 bucks

5) Good enough for my mum putting inside all her belongings

I'm dizzy while typing this, maybe i not yet recover from sickness. And, I'm at my site now. The clouds above my head, FULL; the sky so wide.

[HQ / FULL PV] Tohoshinki Stand By U ( DBSK ver)

2009-06-27T10:30:00.001+09:00

Finally THSK version pv out, personally love this song so much, cuz of the music, rhythm and lyric.

So dizzy....

2009-06-26T14:00:00.000+09:00

I can't help myself but very dizzy, till i feel wanted to faint.

fOOD pOISONING

2009-06-26T10:49:00.002+09:00

Thursday morning at 3, i was diarrhoea, and stomachache badly, till morning 8. Thought that will i admitted to hospital cuz dunno what had happened, after visited company panel doc, he said,

"Food Poisoning." with a very cool face. That time me and Ms Ling speechless.

"Take MC and today only can eat porridge." again, his cool face.

I went home with medicine, staying home alone, but quite enjoy cuz this is my first 'HOLIDAY' for whole day. I slept 3 hours after took the medicine.

Now at office,feel no focus point from my eyes...

"Good Horse won't eat back side grass"

2009-06-24T18:49:00.003+09:00

Chinese got a proverb,

"Good horse won't eat back side grass".

This I'm totally agreed. I'm regreted deadly back here working, all my friend, i'm wrong, please forgive me.

When your boss said you create OFFICE POLITIC; question i wanna ask:
1) when i got time sit inside office? I remember everyday i drive outside doing my layout alone, do my quotation alone, when i got time?
2) to create office politic need a GANG / GROUP ppl anti other ppl, but now only me, myself and i fighting for my pride. Stop talking to others also assumed as CREATE OFFICE POLITIC meh?

Some more, to help the weak? That means i'm the strong? Why other sales ppl's delivery job have to done by me? Why i have to teach their customers? Will i get any commission? NO! definately NO! Why my sales get under cut by other and my boss still side her and told me "nevermind lah" ? Then what for i pick up the phone for sales and my commission?

As a purchase ppl, working here over 4 yrs, to get a price also need to wait 10 yrs? After that if delay the sales or customers go to other competitors it will be my fault, how unfair!

As a clerk, already works here over half year, typing is the basic thing to do EVERYDAY; why still everytime also got excuse to type the wrong address, phone number, or attn person name?

I don't understand, i won't understand, and i don't want to understand their problem. After this project, i think i need to find another job.

边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！

2009-06-24T09:58:00.002+09:00

记得‘溏心风暴’里，李思琪说的话吗？

“边个系人边个系鬼，我一眼就睇出啦！”

简直一时成为佳话。现在发生在我的身上，我觉得，我有权说了。

Frustrated

2009-06-23T11:33:00.000+09:00

Everybody got their principle, especially in working. Today I’m so frustrated and very disappointed, again. (I supposed to sing again and again by 2 pm) Why? I don’t understand why my sales got passed to other sales gal? I don’t know why. And, even the so called BOSS 做人做事also no principle. (Nat, the Chinese = zou yan zou si) After I heard it, totally speechless; but I showed them my ‘silent rebel’. I immediate settled my paper works and straight drive to Shah Alam, cuz I no eyes see. Plus, I scare myself will shout out again.

For so many times they said I’m selfish, from now on, I will be. There’s no reason to care others, cuz they will betray you anytime. All I have to do, is self protect. After this project, when I start sit comfortably inside office, I’m sure will cut them off.

Just now, I went Jusco bought a frappuccino tried to chill myself, but failed. Still, i'm damn angry!!

At site -- Glenmarie, Shah Alam

2009-06-20T11:37:00.001+09:00

Yesterday back from Ipoh, and now i have to work hard at site cuz got changes according my customer and Mr. Tan said.

Yet, now raining and my shifting works can't do smoothly T___T

All the UNCLEs (power point, ceiling board, gypsum board, painting, structure... Ah HEAD), pls make the works as goos as you can.

SAND

2009-06-19T01:08:00.003+09:00

For someone familiar with this name, SAND, you know what i'm talked about. I went youtube watched the videos again and again, tell you what, i still can't believe my singing video got posted in public. People comes watch it, comment it, i feel nice. It's like a new try to me, in my life time. As my age and my attitude, this really a BIG step forward. i really thanks my fellow 'group members', Dawn, Alyn & Nat. Without you 3, there won't be SAND. After some HAPPENING, i think, it's time to find you all gather again. At least, i know you all not that kind 'GAY SAU'. (Nat, u know what i say right?)

Take care my friends.

How to overcome …

2009-06-10T10:05:00.000+09:00

My project already at 2nd week, I drive to Glenmarie every day, I meet my client every day, I meeting with the other supplies every day, dealing with the workers every day, have my lunch or so called HIGH TEA every day, driving back from site but jam at federal every day. What I left? I’m not sure, but at least these are the most I remember. And, one more, I have to fight with my company’s purchase department gal and the other accounts gal. Fed up to talk to them almost a month.

I found myself very stress. One day after work, I was on the way driving back to home, stopped at the traffic waiting it green. Just a second, yes, just a glance of time, I feel tired, suddenly wanted a shoulder to lean on. I tell you, at that moment I was very depressed and urge to find someone to lean on. But after I reached home, I found no one. Of course I got no one; I don’t even have a boy friend yet.

Lately meet back few primary school classmates, all of them married, have children. Sometimes I kinda jealous them cuz they got their own family; but sometimes I feel I’m lucky not yet step inside the MARRY TOMB. Actually I still got a lot of things not yet achieve, not yet experience. But, in the other hand, about love, I already experienced too much, happiness but sadness part the most. The one who hurt me most already married too. What about me? Still alone.

LA Lakers

2009-06-08T10:02:00.000+09:00

For such a long time I didn’t watch basketball, 5 months I think. Just now when I turned to ASTRO channel 812, its NBA finals live, LA Lakers vs. Orlando Magic, game 1. So amazing I caught the right timing and watching it till now. The game almost controlled by Kobe Bryant, LA Lakers till 3rd quarter, 20 points different. He’s my idol! From secondary till 2008 Beijing Olympic, I watched all the matches USA played, he’s amazing!

Since I was primary school, I loved to watch NBA thru free TV. Then when I was in secondary school, I’m more interested in it and that’s why I supported ASTRO till now. Basketball, I love to watch, I used to play. But I didn’t really paid full attention to practice and patient continues the damn tough training. Some of my male friends play very well in secondary school; they went competitions and won certain level of prizes.

Sometimes I think, if I keep on staying at female basketball team and stand the tough training the coach gives, will I be good basketball player too? At least I think in secondary school period, my life will change and full with glorious, maybe. Who knows?

Touching

2009-06-05T10:49:00.000+09:00

Today after work, I went home on time. Switched on my laptop and thought to burn my videos in DVD. When I tried to ‘filter’ those unused / not interesting videos, I found one made my cried.

In Korea, there’s a program name STAR KING, which is a talent show for ANYTHING. Yup, anything, e.g.: singing, special kungfu, cooking, etc. This time, they had a 3rd time winner came this program. All of them are handicap kids, they can’t see, their face look alike retarded, but they all can sing, especially the 2 boys. First song they sang was “Happy Day” from the OST of Sister Act II. I love this song when I first watched this movie; I even bought the DVD and watch it all the time. I never know there still got other people will like it too. When they started sang, my tears dropped nonstop. I really can’t stand cuz I think all of them so talented and brave.

The 2nd song was sang by the 2 boys with a blind man plays harmonica who very well known in Korea. The blind man the choir teacher; he’s the one who encourage the entire handicap small kids join their choir. And, the 2nd song was “I Believe I Can Fly”. Again, my tears dropped like flood. Not only their singing very best, but, I had a thought at that time. Back to 4 yrs ago, my ex-bf loved this song so much; but I was not. Although I like this song, but I hate it after my ex-bf sang thousand times in front of me, made me feel irritated. But compared with the boys, I suddenly felt this song and lyric super touching! This song is like talking about them. How brave they are. Look at those normal people, still wasting their precious time doing nothing. How shame they are.

Look at them, I feel shame of myself. Even though they can’t see, but they still try hard on learning how to sing and perform with full confident in front of stranger. Of cuz, one of the reasons is, they can’t see anything. Anyway, I really learnt a lot from them, and I tell myself, I must have their spirit and live on bravely and confidently.

Busy

2009-06-03T10:22:00.001+09:00

One of my friend complained I didn’t update blog lately, till she can’t update my life story. Haha, I didn’t know she got time stop by and read my blog cuz I thought she’s so busy on working at US. Well, me too. June, my project started and I have to go Glenmarie, Shah Alam very frequent. Em, almost one week time I have to go there 4 days, and all time stand by to amend the layout and prepare the quotation for additional items. So sorry I can’t even pick up your phone to chat long time as before we did.

It’s a good start but still a tough work. I’m not only taking care of this project, but other customers too. Driving fast while thinking how to cut other cars and talking on phone in the same time, it’s already normal to me. Haha, I wonder when the police will catch me. Touch wood!!! Touch wood!!

I’m planning to take 3 days leave back to Ipoh, cuz I want a rest. And, I wanna eat Ipoh nice food. Ya, still PLANNING, so don’t know when will ACTUAL happen. My mum persuading me go Malacca cuz she wants goes A’Famosa. Yup, I will plan on this coming month end or next beginning of month.

肥田喜事

2009-05-25T10:51:00.001+09:00

最近电视播着这电视剧，我是第一次这么认真追看这部戏，实在有够写实。我向同事借了dvd一口气把它看完了。

故事除了讲述肥人的辛酸，还有说明肥人也有权利穿漂亮的衣服，也可以装扮得很可爱。但同时，也教会了我两件事：做人做事都要有自信，还有，爱一个人不是迁就听话就行了，而是真真切切为他设想。

可能自己已经是肥田了，所以才更身同感受，肥了之后的我，更能深切感受要买一件自己喜欢也合身的衣服，真的一点都不容易。好笑的是，我从来都没有想过要减肥，或许是没有耐心和懒惰吧。也没差，就像这戏一直强调，心灵相同，如果是你的，就是你的。

Singing

2009-05-25T10:50:00.001+09:00

Lately I watched American Idol, ASTRO Singing Contest & SPRITE (CHINA) Singing Competition. It’s amazing. Especially American Idol, Adam & Kris. Last month in Malaysia, One in The Million, Tomok won, of cuz Esther not bad too.

Take part in any kind of music talent or singing competition, what’s the most important thing we needed bring along always? It’s confident. I admit I don’t have it. That’s why I never try on any singing competition, except the SM Audition, for twice J

I’m going 29, but I’m still wondering, what I want for future, I still have a dream on being a singer. It’s kinda ridiculous, and I knew it won’t happen till I step out. Every time I watch the singing competition in TV, be honest to say, some of the contestants really cannot be accepted. I don’t know how the judge let them pass the audition. Not that I’m a critic person, but sometimes really no idea WHY. Well, myself not a singer, but my ears still can differentiate what is good what is bad.

Among so many singers, so many genres, so many styles, so many generations, etc, do yo have any idea which and what or even whose voice the most be deeply impressed you? Some of the singers’ voice you’ll find they no need music as a background, cuz their voice already a music, they born to sing live, to me, they are Jacky Cheng, Whitney Houston, Kim Jun Soo, Utada Hikaru, etc. Some of the singers’ voices have a healing feel, but without musical instruments as the set off or background, I found it just a normal song they’re singing, it’s difficult to touch my heart. Most of the Asian singers also can include in this group. The other kind I found is more to rhythm or dancing or performance singers, they maybe not so talented in singing but once add on some dancing and lightning effect, it’s perfect to watch, and most of them got a lot of fans or followers, selling always number one, like Jay Chou, Jolin Tsai, Britney Spears, Ayumi Hamasaki, and those idol groups.

Of cuz there still got a lot different kind of groups I found, but 3 of the most in the music industrial will be enough to discuss here. The above singers that I grouped is only my personal opinion, no need take it serious in your heart. To support your idol is your right, no need feel hurt when others criticize them.

Fight for Pride

2009-05-23T11:59:00.000+09:00

This is the first and ever in my life time I had a big fight in front of all my colleagues with my lady boss, I even cried while shouting at her. Nobody dare to come near or speak anything. Till this second, I still don’t think I was wrong.

I really fed up and feel grievance till I swear to my father Lucifer, I won’t treat her as my relative, she’s only my lady boss. What I concern, only MONEY. And, I hate the purchasing and account girls; don’t ask me talk to them ANYMORE. Say I’m selfish? Then I’ll show you all what is the real SELFISH mean.

Recently I got lots of site visit, site conduct, product demo, etc. Luckily, most of the customers also purchase my product or service. And, I think my GOOD luck came was since the day I cut my hair. Superstitious? Maybe, but why not? At least, I see the result.

One of my friend at Mongolia, he’s quite enjoy the living environment there, relax. Although he’s working but still, like didn’t work at all, cuz nobody push him or keep watch on him. He said he rather stays there than at Malaysia. I’m kinda jealous him, but in the other hand, I feel pity on him. Jealous, is because he take high pay, always travel around for projects; pity, is because there’s only few friends he can calls out during at Malaysia, that’s why he rather stay oversea alone all the time.

But I found myself also the same type like him, no friend surround, rather alone. That’s why I like to talk with him, cuz we’re similar. Danny, I’m waiting you back end of this month and a candle light dinner ^^

HELP!!!!

2009-05-20T10:02:00.002+09:00

OMG!!!! My external HDD dead liao ah!!!!! All my KATTUN video inside!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't sleep whole night till i got dark circle surrounding my eyes T______T

Ahhhh...............................!!!!!

The sadness inside my heart can't use the words to describe...

Exhausting….

2009-05-20T10:01:00.000+09:00

Not only because of the weather, but my working, and my life. This whole week I have full of appointments outside, bunch of quotations waiting me, the unstoppable customers’ phone call, and the never ending revise layouts also have to be updated day by day.

I really tired, headache started sticks with me, and for 2 weeks I take pill to cure it. Lately I back home on time, but bring along the paper works, sales calculation and layout back home working while watching TV. I don’t have time to spare out for entertainment, e.g.: music and drama. The only time I have for music, is while I’m driving. About the drama, movie or program that I had downloaded from internet, all keep inside my hard disc till it started full then I will start filter out those not important video.

Sigh… I wanna have a short break.

New Look

2009-05-11T10:27:00.003+09:00

Saturday & Sunday I went out and changed my look totally, I cut my hair like a coconut look, and bought those clothes I never wear before to look more like a girl, even bought a pair of yellow heel shoes, yup, SHINING YELLOW.

Without notice, all came in a sudden and I just let it went naturally.

P.S. After bought the clothes and cut my hair, i can't get my broadband this month, poor me T___T

Hot Hot Hot!!!!

2009-05-11T10:27:00.001+09:00

I don’t know what’s going wrong to the earth, or maybe God wanna punish human for polluted the earth. But, lately, I mean from February till now, it’s extremely hot Hot HOt HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m driving up to down whole day, I already can’t take this anymore, and body gave the signal, cuz I’m headache badly and fever badly this 2 weeks. I’m not gonna go out under this hot hot sun, and I will discuss with my boss to reduce the afternoon appointment, NO MATTER HOW!

ASTRO

2009-05-11T10:26:00.000+09:00

Due to Mother’s Day, I decided bought ASTRO as a gift to my mum, of cuz for myself, too. For monthly, I have to spend RM100 for the SATRO bill, but I think I can afford it. Now, I’m thinking to sign up for internet broadband service. Lately checking & comparing all the broadband service providers’ pros and cons. Actually I look for P1, but my area is not inside their coverage area, how sad about it. But I not yet give up P1, I will go their centre and ask properly about their service, terms and condition and etc.

Today ASTRO installed, when I back from work, I straight switched it on, till now :p Now mum also back home, and see her face I knew she’s happy, haha….. I felt myself alive after watched it, I pressed all the channels to confirm what package I’ve purchased. And I found that I really lack back, got a lot of programs I don’t know at all. When I turned to channel [V] or MTV, I found a lot of new music. Sigh…… Well, the coming day I will spend more times on ASTRO with my mum, at least we have more times to sit back and talk about the drama.

Regarding the broadband, I will update later day. Wish me luck.

Thanks

2009-05-03T21:57:00.000+09:00

Sam back from Bangkok last few days, she bought me TVXQ single, and this is the second time she bought CD single to me as a present. I remember last time she brought back with a poster too. Thanks, Samsam Chew.

Rebecca gave me a big offer and sell off TVXQ 2009 hanging calendar to me in good condition. I don’t have enough money for now, but she allow me take it back first, once got $ then back in to her. Again, thanks Rebecca.

For such a long time I didn’t buy any luxuries things for myself, but now I had 2. Haha.
I’ve already started working for 2 months, now my situation better than before. At least I got money to buy food I love, e.g.: Mc Donald’s, KFC, Pizza Hut & etc. Compared to rice or noodle, or some expensive food, I preferred fast food. I’m still like a small kids :p eating French fries or hush brown with my hot coffee, how nice.

Looking at the calendar while listening Bolero, sigh… what a nice day…

Trust & Scepticism

2009-05-02T13:03:00.000+09:00

My friend said she had a control freak aunt 24 hours ready scold her for any single tiny reason, and I believed her, cuz I got one and she’s not only a control freak but a typical scepticism freak. She even put a SPY near me, sigh. She’s not only my aunt but my boss too, how disappointed. My friend staying at US always calls and complains about her aunt, and she said she’s getting crazy and have a thought to suicide, not only once but quite frequent. I understood her feeling, I had this experience but I’m not thinking to kill myself, but kill my aunt. Of course I did not; it’s not a right way to settle this problem. Suicide only will bring hurts to us and very pain; kill others, only will make ourselves become a sinner. That’s why I told my friend, don’t think about suicide but try to change our thought and way of living.

“It’s the hardest thing to change others’ thought, and it’s easiest to change ours’”, I came across this from a radio station DJ’s night talk show. It’s true, why we have to waste our precious time to change their thoughts when opposite party’s stupid head already locked or not moving at all. Maybe now my friend not understands what the real meaning I wanna tell her, but I believe, later she will. Like my situation, my boss keeps on saying I’m playful, wasting time, not concentrate on my job, cuz from her eyes view and her earlier prejudiced, no matter what I do, she must accuse me done wrong. At the past 3 years, I’m living in the hate and everyday think to kill her too, what a childish thought I had. But after I back from my 2 months holiday, I changed my mind. Whatever she suspected on me, I treat her like transparent. I know what I’m doing, and I no need explain too much cuz she won’t believe. Playing computer or didn’t submit report = playful? = not serious? = wasting time? Please, do you know what the generation now is? This is not the whole you see, and I’m adult, I know what I’m doing now. To blame or complain or accuse or assume I am bad enough, I don’t think she got the right to judge other people. Who the hell she thinks she is? Forget about it. Against her or shout at her already no use, I rather use a cunning smile or laugh face her. Enjoy my happy life while working and I have to balance my life in between work and play ^^

Whenever my friend asks me “How?”, I will say the same to her, “If can’t stand it, then come back. No matter how many commitment you have, must make the decision by follow our heart.” It seems BULL SHIT, but this is true, don’t suffer ourselves, unless you enjoy the abuse from other.

1582

2009-04-30T13:43:00.004+09:00

This number is a song name, Kame’s solo in their new album, I love it so much. But inside the song I didn’t see any number appear, so I don’t know what’s the real meaning or any relation in between it. Ask me why I like him? Charisma. Another guy I think he deserved what he’d received. I knew him by watched his drama at 2006, but that time I didn’t like KATTUN. After 3 years, I found Kame’s special in certain of way which maybe you all didn't notice, or can say, you won't notice.

Human is like that, first time meet someone, you won’t take a lot of attention on him, unless he’s the cup of tea for you. After sometimes, we’ll see this people grown up and started notice everything about him. When the time you started concern whatever happen on him that means he captured your eyes, and have a space inside your heart. Not really fall for him, but just we get interested only. So don’t worry about that, haha.

Back to Kame, or KATTUN, I really hope I have a chance fly to Japan watch their concert in this coming summer. Cuz I believe this concert, their will put a lot of visual shock to the fans. And the new album they just released really has a high rating inside my heart. And, I wanna know how Kame going to have the solo performance for 1582. Sigh… I wanna go… when will be my turn...?